As you can see.... my babies started school again for the 2013/2014 school year.
:)  My oldest (Tiffanie) is now 13 and in the 8th grade. She'll be graduating
next year and going to high school. AAAARRGGGHHH!  LOL... but, she's a great
kid. They all are.... Frankie is in the 4th grade. He was held back a year and I
totally blame his first 3rd grade teacher... I have reported her for certain
reasons and I don't think she did anything to help Frankie , but ...what can I
do? He's in 4th, and our goal this year is to just get through and for us to
help him do his best...and he is! He started this year of with an "A" on a
report he had to do. YAY! That's a start... and my little Kailani is in
Kindergarten... oh my!!! The first day of school, she was fine. I walked her
there, she went to class... I registered her and she did great!!! The 2nd day...
yesterday... I don't know what happened but the teacher informed me she cried
and cried and cried on and off all day and was soooo ready to go home... so when
I brought her to school today, she cried and cried and cried, and I had to lie
about how I was going to stay with her but needed a sticker from the office
saying I could stay , so she had to go to class and I'd be right there. She is
NOT stupid and told me, "Go get the sticker while I'm right here!".. lmao... She
hugged me, begged me not to go, told me she wanted to go home, and when the
teacher came for the kids... cried some more as this woman Carmen who works at
the school and knows me - grabbed Lani's hand and lied saying I was going to get
some tissue. She wasn't the only student crying but still - it breaks my
heart!!! Even the lunch room staff felt bad for the ones who were in tears. It's
so sad having to walk away while she's crying but the teacher is trying to get
rid of the whole Separation Anxiety for her students and trying to teach them
Independance, so - she doesn't allow parents beyond the lunch room. I think
she'll get use to it eventually... I just don't think she thought school would
be EVERY DAY! LMAO....
However, besides that - the teacher gave
her students 2 pages of name writing to do to learn to write their names and
Lani did that last night. It took forever but we finally got it done, and the
teacher asked that I help her learn how to write her "K's' for now... we did
it...so I hope she remembers and sticks to it... that took 10 minutes to teach
her. At first I showed her how to write K's, but she wasn't getting it, so I
thought, "how can I make this easier?"... I finally came up with a trick... I
drew a line down, showed her where the middle of the line was, made a dot... did
a line up from the dot.. and then line down from the dot...and that's EXACTLY
how she learned!!! :) She was so excited and asked me if I was so proud of her.
I laughed and told her, "Of course I'm so proud of you"... so I made her do it
over and over and over again until she finally learned the trick, and made
perfect K's.... :) I giggled because when I told the teacher how I taught her,
she was amazed and told me she has to remember that trick! LOL.



   And, today... my oldest
has a meeting the 8th grade parents MUST attend so I'm def. excited and looking
forward to that... the meeting is about graduation requirement, high school
applications, test scores needed, possible scholarships... and a bunch of other
things the parents and 8th graders need to know for graduation and such. I can't
believe she's graduating!!! 

  In other
news.... I will hopefully be moving soon with my love, and my babies... I'm
excited to start this new chapter in my life and can't wait. Ex hubby is very
much bitter and mean to me right now, doesn't want me to be happy and is acting
like a totally big baby... I've tried to be nice. I've tried to be civil...I've
tried to be good friends for our children. The kind of friends who can be at our
oldest daughters graduation with the new man in my life...and he and I can say
hello to each other with no hard feelings... the kind of friends where we can be
at events for our kids together, with his new girl (when he finds one) and my
new man and both be peaceful, say hello..and move on... but right now...I don't
see that happening...
smh.... we had got into a huge fight last
week involving the Chicago Police. I swear, if you wanted to commit a crime,
last week was the time to do it because the whole department seemed to be at my
house. One of the female cops made a statement about learning how to act in
front of the kids, and I felt like telling her, "TELL HIM THAT".... but, there's
never any point talking back to a cop!  You won't win... and it doesn't look
good on me if I'm trying to become one.  Neither of us went to jail that night
thankfully..and I decided that after that day, I was going to "WWJD" it (what
would Jesus do)? ...and just be as peaceful as possible and ignore all his
bitter and mean comments, accusations, and rudeness... it takes two to argue and
I refuse to be the 2nd person in any of it.... I also found out that while we
were married... he lied about a lot of things... AND... even during our divorce
and NOW... he continued to lie about a lot of things... his own cousin ratted
him out... and , I decided to be happy with the new person in my life... I'm
happy completely.... and I just hope ex hubby can be civil in the future...and
that's the end of it..


BESIDES
THAT......we got another dog!  yes, you read right! I didn't want the dog...
but, I didn't want to look like the bad guy either... the kids went to a party
the other day and some guy was trying to give them a cat. I would have rather
had the cat... but the kids wanted another MIN PIN since we already have one..
and , I told them YES - for some crazy reason. The dogs name is Chico... he's a
fat little guy... sweet as hell, but our Minnie does NOT get along with
him...and both dogs fight. I feel like I have 5 kids. The kids fight. The dogs
fight...and I'm always cleaning up after all 5... It's suppose to be Frankie's
dog but he's never home during the day to take care of him. He's always with his
friends, so I asked him if we could sell Chico, and I'd give him the money. He
agreed THANK GOD.... !  I really don't want or need TWO dogs in the house...
it's just too much drama and noise! 



   I had to laugh as well
yesterday because I gave oldest a cell phone for her birthday now that she's
getting older, and needs one... I also like the fact I could call her and know
where she is all the time.  So, she calls me yesterday and asks if she can go to
the park with a few of her friends. The conversation went like
this:


  Me:  Whose the adult
supervision?

Tiff:  One of the kids moms, I
don't know her name.

Me:  Whose the kid? 


Tiff:  I don't know
.

Me:  Then NO..you can NOT
go.

Tiff:  Mom, come on...why
not?

Me:  You don't know the kids name. You
don't know the moms name. I don't know the kids name and I haven't talked to the
mom.

(To which she threw a fit, and hung up on
me..and called me back twice begging to go, to which I still kept saying NO!)...


Tiff:  you know what, I'm 13..I'm
going.

Me:  You're NOT going and if I find out
you did, I'm calling the Police because you did NOT have permission.


Tiff:  Mom, I'm 13, I can go...


Me:  No, you really
can't.

Tiff:  Man, I can't wait until I'm 18.


Me:  Well since you're only 13 and you're not
going .... you'll be alive when you're 18 because bad things happen to 13 year
old girls who think they can do whatever they want... so if I know you're not
going.... I'll feel safe and know you'll be safe and live to see 18.


(to which she hung up and got grounded from
her phone because of her talking back and
attitude...)

I gave it back last night because
she needs it for me to get ahold of her... but, I told her the next time she
talks back and doesn't listen... she is NOT getting it back...

  Omg!
    I am now the responsible owner of a TEENAGER!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!   Dear GRAY HAIRS - be GENTLE!  
LMAO....

       My oldest daughter is 13 today!
  We had a small pool party thing for her and I was shocked when she said she
didn't want certain friends over because they're 2 faced, and hang out with the
wrong crowds! I was proud and thought, "Good kid!"....at least that's one thing
I can say... she may be a Teenager now, but at least I still have control over
here. She never talks back - it's very rare... on occassion , don't get me wrong
  ...she might get a little mouthy, but I stop it real fast and when I get up,
she smiles and says, "Oh man, I better shut up!"... damn right! lmao.... and,
she doesn't disrespect me, she listens to what I say, and knows I find out
EVERYTHING! LMAO... she's learned this lesson the hard way!!!!  :)    She really
is a good kid thou and hey - hasn't been entered into the Juvenile Justice
system just yet like I was at her age... smh.  Not proud of it, but I am proud
that she knows right from wrong un-like me when I was younger, and I am proud
that she steers clear of trouble. 

   SO, this
is the story of my little Tiffie!!!  

    I
found out I was pregnant with Tiffanie a few months after her dad and I started
dating. Things moved quickly which I'm also not proud of but I had a rock on my
finger.. he proposed so .... the rest was history!  I thought I was in love at
the time. I was young and this guy was buying me all kinds of things, taking me
out like crazy and I enjoyed spending time with him back then. WAY BACK
THEN...Lmao... any way.... when I realized my Period was late (sorry for the
information fellas out there)... jaja... I decided to take a pregnancy test .. I
went to a little clinic by my parents house because I lived with them at the
time.. I was only 17.  Cisco (Tiff's dad and now dad to 2 of my others) had to
work so he told me to call him and let him know what they say. I agreed and when
the woman told me my pregnancy test was positive...I was scared. I didn't want
to go home... I knew my mother was going to FLIP...especially because I was the
maid of honor in her wedding.. (Her and my dad were getting re-married in church
for their 25th wedding Anniversary)... I had my dress picked and every-thing...
so, I knew my mother wasn't going to take the news very well, plus...she went to
College... she did all this great stuff with her life and was a straight A
student back then so I knew she had high hopes and expectations for me as
well.... I got home and called Cisco and told him he was going to be a father...
yes, just like that! LOL..he was quiet. I took it as a bad thing but heard his
boy at work ask him, "Why you smiling ?"... he told him he was going to be a
dad, and the dude congratulated him so I knew it'd be fine.

When my mother found out -   he and I were sitting in the car
talking. We had just come back from getting something to eat, and my mother
walked over to the car to say hello to him and ask me if I tried my dress for
the wedding on one last time. I looked at Cisco , then at my mother and told
her... "Um, I don't know if the dress is going to fit me by the time of your
wedding"... she asked why not and said the only reason it wouldn't fit is if I
was pregnant and gained weight. She laughed like it was a joke...I didn't...
when she saw how serious I was, she asked me if I was pregnant. I didn't
reply... she then said, "YOU'RE NOT PREGNANT ARE YOU?"... she caught on and
started swearing, yelling and walked away.  Cisco joked and said, "Well, that
went well!"... lmao... Even my dad was giving Cisco the dirtiest looks.


Long story short...they got over it and my mother was
excited to have a grand-child on the way. We found out it was a girl and while
coming up with names for her..my grandmother Shirley decided she wanted TIFFANIE
Amber like the girl from SAVED BY THE BELL... LOL... my grandma said she LOVED
that name and then said, "Well, you can name her whatever you want , but grandma
wants Tiffanie Amber... hint hint".. lmao... so, just for Grandma Shirley...my
first born was Tiffanie AMber...

I was soooo
sick with her and couldn't keep ANY food down at all... my moms mom, who I
called "Yia Yia", saw me puking my guts out a few mornings when I found out I
was pregnant , and she'd tell me even before I got the pregnancy test done that
I was pregnant. I told her I just had the stomach flu, and she kept giving me
the weirdest look and telling me, "No, I don't think so!"... LOL...


She was def. right!!

Labor
-  Tiffanie was due August 19th, 2000 and came right no her due date!! :) See,
even back then she listened! lmao... I went into the Labor and Delivery unit
around 10 AM that day because I had to see my Dr. for a normal check up and was
3 Cm. dialated.  They decided to have me walk around for a few hours to see if
my water broke or I'd dialate anymore ...when they checked..I was still the same
so the male nurse walked out of the room to get my release papers and I told
Cisco I was starving and wanted Mcdonalds when we left. He was fine with it, and
dang Tiffanie man - smh... my water broke and the child decided to give me hell!
LOL....
I told Cisco I think my water broke. He lifted the blanket, asked
how I knew...saw it and said, "WHOA!   I'll get the Dr"... the male nurse came
back in and told me  wasn't going any where now. I asked if Cisco could bring me
Mcdonalds... the nurse said he could bring it for himelf, but I wasn't allowed
to eat in labor or the baby may fall asleep and be too lazy to come out when
it's time to push.... makes sense!  I was so hungry tho so I was also very much
crabby! 

Cisco called his family who ALL came to hold the baby as soon
as she was born. LOL... his dad brought him Mcdonalds that smartass told me he
was going to go eat in the corner so I didn't SEE him... I told him, "I COULD
STILL SMELL IT!!!"....ugh...lol.
I went into labor on the 18th,
and at 2:07 AM - August 19th.. right on her due date... Tiffanie came along!  :)

She has grown so fast into such a beautiful young woman and I'm
proud to have her!  She's a great student in school, made the list of kids who
NEVER get in trouble... has been in her schools band playing flute for 2 years
and even tho she no longer does that, I was amazed at how fast she's learned
it... she has come out of her shy shell sooo much over the last few years, and
is also on her schools VARSITY BASKETBALL GIRLS ALL STAR team where her team
mates know her as "LADY JORDAN" because she's THAT GOOD! :) She makes me proud !
  She's goofy, fun to be with, and we always have a ball when we're together... I
joke and tell her I can't hang out with her anymore because she's a bad
influence on me.. she laughs and tells me, "ME? YOU'RE THE ONE WHO DID THIS OR
THAT"...lmao... it's easy to make my Tiffie laugh..she tries not to laugh at my
jokes but doesn't succeed! LOL... even when she thinks my jokes are stupid, she
still giggles a bit.
She's looking forward to graduation next year,
and I'm looking forward to planning it for her.
I've had tons
of good and funny memories with Tiffanie - some that I've listed in previous
writings below some where.... and it's funny because she has tried to be slick
many times as teenagers will - and I've stopped her and been one step ahead of
her the entire time.. I think my time spent as an out of control teenager has
given me the "know how" to know how to deal with one and to catch her in things
she does BEFORE she does them! LOL she can THINK about doing them in her mind,
but they'll never happen because she tells everyone, "My mom finds out
everything" and she's right...I've also put fear in her by telling her she never
knows who I paid to be my eyes on the streets so to be careful what she does!
LMAO... she asked if I was serious so I think she really does think I got "eyes
in the skies" ha ha...

Any way,
  

Happy BIRTHDAY to my 13 year old , Tiffanie!!!  Mom loves you dearly and I'm so
happy I have you in my life!!!!!  As you get older.. i'll always remember all
the fun times we've had together, all the things you've done to boil my blood
and aggravate the hell out of me, LMAO.. that make us laugh now, all the times
you tried to be slick that I've caught you before-hand , and all the fun places
we've been together... all the fun things we've done together..all the things
I've done to embarass you and make you laugh...I'm a mom, you don't have to
thank me, it's my job! LMAO.... seriously tho...I love you kid!  

And, tomrrow is my Lani's birthday. She'll be 5......:)  They grow so fast....
Lani, she's my UH OH baby!  LMAO.. kidding kidding... but she wasn't planned...
however, I do NOT believe in Abortion so she's very much here and loved...

I had a small easy pregnancy with Lani. She was tiny so I didn't even
look much pregnant when I was...
I wasn't sick during it or any-thing. She
developed properly and all. The only time I had problems was when I found out I
had Preeclamsia. Normal thing pregnant women get that goes away after the baby
is born... too much protien or something to that affect during pregnancy ... it
can be dangerous to both mom and baby if not monitored carefully, so it sent me
upstairs to Labor and Delivery for some over night stays a few times... my blood
pressure was high and caused concerned... my Dr. was great. The last time I was
in the hospital, I was there for a few hours before my Dr. came in to check, and
Lani was facing downwards so he decided to induce labor because of the danger of
the Preeclamsia....when they were about to do it, she flipped and was breech...
smh. Kids! GOTTA LOVE THEIR LAST MINUTE DRAMAS!  Lmao....
He said we had to
do emergency C- section...and when I asked if it was nessassary and wanted to
wait ... he said he was NOT going to let this baby lose her mother, or the
mother lose her baby!  ...that's when I realized how serious it was...

he asked if I had eaten anything that day, and I told him a
HONEY BUN. I had to giggle when he asked me , "what the heck is a honey bun?"...
even his nurses couldn't believe his question. lmao.. I told him and his reply
was, "HMMM...Sounds good. I'm going to have to try one of those one day!"...
crazy right?! LOL who hasn't had a honey bun???!!!


Any way.... we had to wait 8 hours because I
had eaten something , and when they finally took me in for the C-section, I was
given numbing medication and couldn't even keep my eyes open for some reason...
I didn't feel a thing thankfully...all I heard was the Dr. tell the nurse,
"that's it..do it gently... just pull her out like a rabbit from a hat!"..
lmao.. wtf? now we were doing magic?!  LOL.. but yes! She caused me trouble
even before she was born and she's my little trouble - maker now! LOL.

She's a good kid too ... going into Kindergarten, LOVES bike
riding, being outdoors, playing with the dog we have, and always smiling and
happy... USUALLY!  She does have a big temper that I say comes from her dads
side ! Lmao...
I've been blessed with 3 amazing kids, and Lani
is my youngest... so,

Happy Birthday to my little Lani bug as well.. who keeps me on my toes.. and
doesn't let me sit for 5 minutes! Who knows how to work a DVD/VCR better than I
do..video games and all, and who keeps me smiling and loving life... who wipes
my tears when I cry like I wipe hers when she cries, and is just so cuddly, and
loveable... and keeps me happy. Happy birthday little midget. :)



          5 AND 13 - both big
milestones for my babies!  Mommy loves you both soooo much! 





Peace and Love,
Shel.

is what I hope to be a part of soon! 

  Now, I'm going to
say that I highly doubt I'll get in or it will happen, but I've always been
interested in becoming a Cop and think the work would be completely fun, totally
new from night to night... and the situations would always be different and
wild. I know both good and bad comes with it, and I'm ready.... I just submitted
my application online to the Chicago Police Department ... and , we'll see what
happens! 
I'm looking forward to being behind the wheel of a
Police car and hopefully, working my way up in the department to one day work
Gang Tactical. I've ALWAYS dreamed of being a Gang tact. officer.... I looked up
to them when I was younger and I know it takes years of dedicated and hard work,
but I believe in myself and the fact that my passion for this will take me
through the written test if I get called, the physical exam (although, I'm not
so sure about jumping a wall)..LMAO... and the training. No, I don't want to
doubt I'll get in like I said above, but I have to be realistic and know that
MANY MANY MANY people apply and not ALL get in.... so, I think I'll be one of
those few who don't... I have hopes thou!  I'll keep ya'll posted!  I know the
application process closes this month I believe, so - I did it just in time. I
just need to submitted my waiver form for the application fee.  I had to laugh
because one of my close friends said how dangerous the job is. I told him I know
and he asked what if I get shot... I told him , "Then, I'll die doing something
I loved"... he called me crazy and told me I better come see him before the
first day on the job! LMAO...
I say this... if you can't beat
em...join em.. lmao.. about time I end up on the right side of the law, huh?!
jaja....


    Besides that, my
oldest is upset with me tonight.....

         

                                                    LOL

             I won't let her get her tongue or lip pieced!  Some of her friends have their
tongues and lips pierced because those parents took them to get it and gave
their permissions!  I WILL NOT!!!  I'm not cracking on this and this is
something I feel strongly about. I told her she should NOT have any holes in her
body except the ones she's born with.  She got angry and told me she's getting
it any way , and will forge mine or her dads signature at the mall. I laughed
and told her she needs our ID's and they need to see the parents with her.  She
said she'll find a way and that she knows a place to get one done where she
doesn't need the parents.  I told her, "That's fine.... you'll get me money
after I sue the crap out of that store!".... she keeps insisting she's getting
one with or without me. I laugh and tell her, "Do it...you'll be sorry!".... I
also showed her pictures of PIERCINGS GONE BAD.... and after seeing the
swelling, the infections, the nasty - disgusting pictures - she still wants one!
  smh.....I keep refusing... I told her if she wants her Cartilage pierced...
that's fine, but nose, lip, chin, tongue - and anything else for that
matter...NOT HAPPENING!!!!!!!   Not under my supervision!   Thankfully, her dad
also agreed that she is NOT to get a piercing and said he would take her to get
her ears pierced and nothing more.
My brother and I have a friend we grew up
with named Jay.   Jay has known my kids since they were babies so they call him
, "Uncle Jay", or he considers himself their Uncle. His wife Daniela heard
Tiffanie wanted the piecings and told Tiffanie, "Go ask Uncle Jay to show his
piercing scars and what it did to him!"... that still don't phase her and she
SSSTTTIIILLLL wants one.  TOUGH SHIT!!!  She's going to have to wait until she's
18...or 16...or when ever they do them legally without parental consent, because
while I have the consent she needs - she's not getting it from me!  She told me
she wasn't talking to me any more until I agree. I told her that's fine with me.
She said her friends parents let them do it...I told her I'm not her friends
parents. So, if she wants to stay mad at me...it doesn't bother me! :) I still
say, HELL NO!!!  Her not talking to me because I won't get it for her???? For
some reason she thinks I give a damn! LMFAO.... If it means my daughter grows up
classy, and looking respectable... so be it!  She doesn't have to talk to me.
LOL...she even went as far as telling me her Tita (her dads sister) has it and
nothing happened to her. I told her , "Tita is also 36.. you're 13! Na na na na
na na NOOOOO!"... lol..



Um...what else ?? Oh.... I
went to court today to get the stupid paper Ex hubby and I need to do our
co-parenting 4 hour one day class that teaches us how to get along for the kids
and yadda yadda yadda....
I was told that since it was the
clerks mistake and she didn't give us the paper when we did the
custody/visitation crap .... I could get a copy free if I talked to the
supervisor...BULLSHIT...they charged me $15 and I didn't have it on me so I
couldn't get the paper. I was pissed for going down there wasnting my time but
ah well.... another day I have to go down there and settle shit... I swear, more
problems than they're worth.


Peace
and Love as always,
Shel.

We had a small birthday party for my daughters ... it was anything big because I let people know at the last minute and didn't send out invitations like I was suppose to because I've been so crazy busy... but, it was nice. Family, a few friends and their kids... and besides a big fight my brother started when he got drunk and talkative at the end of the night... the party was nice.
My youngest daughter has wanted the light - up pillow you see in the photo with her above... she kept seeing it on t.v. and kept asking, "Will you buy that for me?"... and I'd always tell her YES... so when I saw it at the store, you know I had to get it... (Batteries not included parents, take that note) because I spent an hour looking for working batteries around the house after she opened it! LMAO... I didn't even think about batteries at the time but I should know by now that 90% of Kids' toys now are operated by such... smh. LOL... we found the batteries, the pillow lights up different colors and is totally cute and she loves it and walks around with it every-where now.    :)

The oldest got a cell phone. Yes!  I finally got her one... mainly because now it's easier to keep track of her ..but ssssshhhhhh... don't tell her that. LMAO... and she loves her phone as well... facebook all day... it's crazy!  I've told her if she doesn't answer my calls or texts, it gets taken away so she's doing pretty good with it right now.

        

So, we had a nice little time... and all is well.. :)

Shel.

Totally!!!

  It's been a while since I last
updated and I want to start by sharing a few funny moments I've had with my kids
this week. I have been thru hell the last few months and my kids can always make
me laugh and put a smile on my face, so they are def. a big blessing to me.


      My little Lani and I were walking past a car wash
this past weekend, and she asked if we were going "In there", I told her
..."Lani, what car would I go in there with? I don't have a car right now"...
and I was kind of upset because when I did have my car, I always took the kids
to the car wash because they enjoyed going in with the car and seeing how the
car gets washed... all the big brushes and such... and I felt bad that I KNEW
she wanted to do that again, and I couldn't take her "in there"..... when I
asked that question, she started shaking her hips like crazy - like a true
LATINA...lmao... and told me, "We can go in there like this and wash
our-selves!".... she had me cracking up... pretty much saying we can dance thru
it. 

    And, then  -  Tiffanie and Lani's
birthdays are coming up.  Tiffanie will be 13 (AAARRGGGGHHHH) LOL - on the 19th,
and Lani will be 5 (AAAWWEEE)...lmao.. on the 20th. Don't ask me how I got their
birthdays one day apart. I'm just that damn good! ha ha... seriously tho... So,
I was going to the bakery to order their cakes because the party is going to be
on Sunday... and , I asked Tiffanie to come with me to pick what design she
wanted on hers. She's going to be a teenager and no longer enjoys sharing a cake
with her sister... if she ever enjoyed it at all!  I got Lani a small ELMO cake,
but since Tiffanie was more interested in staying with her friends and hanging
out (because she doesn't "play" anymore)...LOL... She told me to just order her
a MINION cake. My first thought was , "WHAT THE HELL IS A MINION?"...lmao.  She
laughed and told me she would send me a picture, and she did.  I deleted the
picture she sent me after I ordered the cake, so just for the
record......

    

THIS cute little dude and many others like him...ARE MINIONS! Lmao... from the
movie , "Despicable Me 2".  The one she sent me thou, had a Puerto Rican T shirt
on , and he was holding the Puerto Rican flag up in his hand (My kids are Puerto
Rican by the way from their dads side).  She said she wanted THAT one... so,
when I went to the bakery, I asked the guy if he could draw it. I showed him the
picture and decided to SURPRISE Tiffanie.. and instead of the Puerto Rican flag
in his hand, I would order it with a BASKETBALL in his hand but keep the Puerto
Rican T shirt... I didn't know if she would like it or not, but she LOVES
BASKETBALL, plays VARSITY ALL STARS at her school, and is amazing at it...
that's her talent!  So, I got creative with her cake and threw that in. LOL.
Tiffanie LOVED LOVED LOVED the idea. I was going to surprise her at the party,
but if she didn't like it, I didn't want her to say anything in front of her
friends, so I decided to take the punch over the phone. lmao... I called her and
told her what I did instead of the flag in his hand, and she was TOO EXCITED! 
All I heard was, "YYYYEEEAAAAAHHHHH"...and she was happy about it. It made me
smile that I made her happy. : )  It's hard to make Tiffanie happy... !  She's
in her little phases right now so if you've made her happy... you've
accomplished something, and that's how I felt that day! LMAO...



     My Frankie - he had me
cracking up today because I have to go for testing due to bad swelling in my
left leg and chest pain near my heart. I'll be getting checked for any
abnormalties or blood clots... So, I've been put on a NO SOLID FOODS order after
10 AM. Believe me when I say I made the most of food until 10.. LOL.. I had MAC
AND CHEESE, A BAGEL, a ho-ho, and 2 cups of juice... I can't eat for 4 hours
before the test. I made sure to fill my stomach this morning. Any way, I wanted
coffee sssooo bad! I love me some coffee.. so , I called the hospital to make
sure it was okay, and wouldn't affect the results of the test. I was transfered
to 10 different people / departments before the final one told me , "Yes, that's
fine!"... Good lord. When I got off the phone, I screamed out, "MY GOD..ALL I
WANTED WAS SOME COFFEE... ALL THAT TROUBLE.. TRANSFER ME TO THE STARBUCKS
DEPARTMENT... HOW ABOUT THAT?! "... LMAO...when I said that...Frankie started
cracking up!  It made me feel good to make him laugh!   :) He's with me today
because he'll be at my moms playing on the computer while I'm at my appointments
for the tests.


        Any
way, I just thought I'd share the reason for my smiles through my trials! 


    Now, let me tell ya what's been going on
since I last wrote.

     I will FINALLY have
my license back this weekend!  WWWOOO HOOOOO.... Those who don't know...I have
this bullshit where I have to be checked every 6 months and my DR. has to make
sure it's okay for me to drive due to passing out... and such. SO, I have
medication I take to stop it and I get the levels checked so they know I'm
taking it right. My levels last time were 38 and I took these stupid pills
constantly for 3 weeks...I called my Dr. upset and worried they weren't working
, and wanting to drive again sssoooo bad. My license is canceled right now
because of this bull... !   Well, she told me to wait another week. I had doubts
but when I went last week to get another check... they called me back and said
my levels were 95!   Normal levels to drive again range between 50-100...so, my
Dr. said she wanted them to be like a few months ago - which was 75.. or higher.
And, being higher now.. she signed my paper to drive and I'll pick that up
today!  :)  YAY-NESS! lmao... now, to go to the DMV and RE-NEW my EXPIRED
license... and pay my tickets to get a car, and I'll be set.


I also had an interview at this cafe I went to last week...
smh.  All I can say is
this....
  
    
     

Is EXACTLY what I felt like telling the owner of the cafe. She interviewed me.
The cafe just opened in December, when I applied. Hasn't been there long..so I
was surprised to hear from them barely in July. When I called the woman back,
she asked me to come in THAT SAME DAY, and I told her , "I can tomorrow", but
then I thought , "I REALLY need more money and this job", and so - I went in the
same day we talked. She seemed nice over the phone and all - and even in person,
but her IQ - idk about that one. LMAO... it aggravated me because she asked me
to come in at 4. I was fine with that and got there 5 minutes early.  She had
customers and she said 2 of her waitresses called off, so she had me waiting
almost 30 minutes while she took care of customers, made beverages for phone
orders picking up, and talked to the cook. She had NO WAITRESSES in there when I
went in, so wouldn't you NEED a waitress or MORE as back up just incase yours
call in like they did that day?

The job was for
cashier/waitressing... I can do that with my eyes closed... no experience but
how hard is it? Taking orders... answering phones and cashiering? I've done the
last 2 before so I'd be a fast learner. So, when she finally does interview me,
she asks about me, and why I want to work there. I explain it's close to him,
and I think it would be exciting and fun to work with different people all day
and be on my feet always contantly moving around. She then asks the million
dollar question... "DO YOU SPEAK SPANISH?"... around my area, it's 95% spanish
speaking , so I understand that, but I don't feel jobs should NOT hire people
because of that, and that's one petition I'd love to start and win!  One thing
I'd LOVE to change about the world... I love spanish and think it's a beautiful
language and the culture is beautiful... but, do I Speak it? NO... do I think I
shouldn't get a job because I don't speak it? NO... I feel like that's why she
didn't hire me, and I feel like it's a form of descrimination because I know how
to do a lot of the jobs who won't hire me because I need to speak spanish/ Be
bi-lingual...it pisses me off.
Any way, I told her I speak
ENOUGH to get by... I know how to ask someone to hold on a minute while calling
someone who does speak spanish or can translate, and I know certain words in
spanish and can easily take an order in it.
She tells me she
was kind of hoping for a spanish speaker... but it's not a problem. (SO SHE
SAYS!)...she then asks if I have experience...


Now here's where I felt like telling her the
ABOVE... about time wasting... she OBVIOUSLY read my resume because she called
me and told me she did... and she liked it. That's why she wanted to meet me. On
my resume, I have Routing , Nursing home, and Glass claims as my last 3 jobs...
NO WHERE DOES IT FRIGGIN' SAY WAITRESSING OR CASHIERING.... I don't have
experience waitressing, and my cashiering was a while back.... although I think
I put that as a "skill" on my resume.. don't remember...
So, she then tells
me , "oh, I didn't see you didn't have experience on your resume doing
waitressing. I don't know how I over-looked that, and I did read your resume". 
After she asked if I could speak spanish, I felt like asking her if she could
READ ENGLISH!  LOL... I don't know what nationality she was, but she spoke
spanish and I only know that because she started talking to me in spanish to see
if I could hold a conversation.

So, after all
that - I just felt like she wasted an hour of my life I'll never get back, and
really wanted to ask her for a free latte or something after wasting my time,
knowing damn well she read my resume and it said nothing about waitressing but
she wants to call me any way... and I really do think it was because I didn't
speak spanish. She told me she just opened the cafe with her husband and they
know NOTHING about the business so she wants waitresses to teach HER and him
about it..and run it when she's not there. WHATEVER!  I didn't even say goodbye.
I got up, told her "Okay", and walked out. And, my job hunt continues because at
this point, I'll take whatever I can get to make money.


In other news, I went to my Dr. last week as
well. I was in the hopsital twice. Once for swelling in my ankle and leg. And,
once for bad chest pain and I wasn't able to breath. My heart rate was high and
kept going up when I got to the hospital and I was taken in the back fast to be
treated. When I saw my family Dr. - he put me on nerve pills (LORD KNOWS I NEED
THEM)...lmao... and called it "ANXIETY" for now... but wants to check my  heart
and leg to make sure there's no blood clots going on..and those are the tests
I'll be having today... both.

My kids will
also be going back to school the 26th and the time is fast approaching. I was
hoping to have a new apartment for the girls and I before then - since my son is
staying with his dad.. and , it isn't happening.. I feel stressed, and
disappointed right now, but what can I do except keep my head up and keep
trying... I brought Lani a book bag and was going to get their school supplies,
but without me knowing, their grandma and aunt got their school supplies and got
my 2 oldest their book bags. I was upset at first because they didn't ask if I
was going to, but I do know they did it out of the kindness of their hearts,
just to be a help - and I can't be mad at that. I just wanted to do it as their
mom, but as moms - I guess we gotta accept any help we can get - ESPECIALLY if
we don't ask for it and people just do it... that's the best kind of help,
right?!  Ex-hubby told me that he didn't know they were going to do that, but
they wanted to help...so , can't say much about it. At least I got to get Lani
her book bag. I still can't believe oldest will be graduating next year, and
youngest as well from Kindergarten. My babies are growing up sooo fast! 


Another thing I did this week was call my old
job to see if I can go back to it. Haven't heard from the manager yet, so I'm
guessing that's a NO... Big and fat!? But, I have hope and like to think maybe
he's busy, hasn't heart it yet, or is on vacation?!  We'll see....


I also did what I've been saying I was going
to do for a while now. I finally went into my big ass stash of bills from YEARS
AND YEARS ago.. medical, credit card, phones, whatever... I took that big ass
pile of bills, seperated mine from ex-hubby's...gave him his.. and I put mine in
a neat pile to deal with ASAP... I need to get my credit back and better than
ever... these are NOT recent bills.. NOT bills from now.. but they are bills
that I've ignored for a long time when I was young and stupid/carefree... I'm no
where like that now and need to be responsible because they're not going to go
away and I don't have a personal genie!  I do plan on starting with the MEDICAL
BILLS first because I KNOW some of those I've gotten... I had insurance at the
time and either they didn't have my insurance on file, or couldn't find it, or I
didn't have it with me at the time, but if they can go back and bill my
insurance for some of those..or I can get some kind of assistance with the
hospitals that some came from.. it would be great. It would knock them out right
away, and then I can deal with credit card bullshit. Now, the credit cards are
NOT really mine. I had ONE credit card in my name from when I was like 19... but
it still haunts my credit. Damn CREDIT SPOOKS! lmao... ghosts and
all...
The other credit cards have been EX-HUBBY'S that applied
for, got and gave me an extra card. Sears - HE BLEW ALL THAT MONEY ON HIMSELF
... shirts, pants, colongs... etc. $900 - GONE.... him... !   I spent maybe $100
of that on myself...
Marshall fields... long long time ago...
I'll take partial blame on that one because we both used that for Christmas
shopping one year.
Visa... we had a $500 credit limit and he
spent $300 on this stupid gas car... I guess it's a man thing... LOL.. a remote
control gas car at that. THAT HE USED FOR A FEW WEEKS and sold. smh...
And,
because he decided instead of emergencies, he was going to use it on the gas car
I told him not to buy, I took Tiffanie in her stroller when she was a baby, and
went to Kmart to MAX OUT the rest of the card on me and her... STUPID. VERY
STUPID. VERY VERY STUPID... but as I said, I was young. we were young...and we
didn't think. And, now....we're dealing with the consequences.

IF I was drinking something or eating the other day when I
opened my credit score... I would have choked and died. It's not even funny... I
don't know how the hell it got like that, but I do know I need to get myself of
his JOINT credit cards, deal with my medical bills and my credit card... and
then... because I'm a nice person... see if I can help him knock out some of his
bills.
And, I'm doing that out of the kindness of my heart
because even though we're divorced... he should be dept free and get his credit
back as well. I'm not a bitch like he thinks...
I'm just glad I
took the first step getting all our bills together, separating them into two
piles (mine and his)... and I'm ready to tackle them.
The funny
thing is... I had a bunch of bills piled into 2 bags I went through... through
away the double or triple bills they keep sending... and ended up with a "not so
big" pile because some were repeats! 
THANK
GOD....
Then - I went on top of the fridge in the kitchen, where
I knew there was another pile.. knocked those out... and thought there was a few
more in the laundry room... that few more in the laundry room, turned out to be
another big pile... which also got knocked dow to a "few" any way because
REPEATS again... so, the pile of bills isn't TOO BAD... but, they do HURT MY
CREDIT BAD... and I need to fix that - especially if I plan to get a car from a
dealer any time soon.
I'm making moves to getting my life back
!!!  ON MY OWN....
Divorce is a brutal thing especailly if you have joint
accounts and bills.  I might just take on a small job some where on the side to
have "bills money" and see if I can work out a deal with some of them. I'm not
going to wait for some of them to offer me a "settlement", I'm going to see how
much I owe... call them, and say... "Hey, I have this much... will you take it
to settle... "... I owe $500...I'll send $350...take it or leave it".... lmao..
.I run this....
No seriously... some may say, "NO, WE NEED THIS
OR THAT"... and that's when I say... "well, then.... I'll send you this and you
work with me on that!"... LOL..I should have been a lawyer...I can argue my way
out of many things. LMAO...
I'm a tough little brat! 

Look forward to the post where I say either I'M DEPT FREE
finally.. or , THE LAST BILL HAS BEEN PAID!  Next credit report I wanna see
better say CONGRATULATIONS... you're credit score is......... a better number
than the past!  (bbbwwaahahahaha) !



     Now - one good thing
that did happen THIS week that I'm very thankful for and consider it a blessing
and GOOD KARMA for my actions... is one of my closest , dearest, friends from
high school e-mailing me. We had got into a big fall-out argument a few years
ago.. about 3 years probably and haven't talked since. She blocked me from
Facebook, wouldn't talk to me, told me not to contact her at all..and I haven't.
  Don't get me wrong...I LOVE and ADORE my family and friends no matter what
happens. I cherish them dearly and remain loyal to them even if we don't talk,
even if argue - etc. etc. etc.  I always say you never know when tomorrow might
be your last day or theirs so I try not to "not talk to" anyone I love... I
never went to feel like, "I never got to say I'm sorry - or good-bye"... and I
try to tell people the same. Life is too short for bullshit and drama and "not
talking to each other"... so, when her and I fought that day and she said she
never wanted to speak to me again... It bothered me but I didn't bother her for
the last 3 years.   Hearing from her yesterday was really nice and put a smile
on my face.  She wrote a long email saying she's been thinking about me, and how
she can't let a good friend go like that... and a bunch of other stuff..she said
we've had more good times than bad, which I totally agree with, and it was just
a really sincere and nice e-mail. Much appreciated and very much welcomed!  She
thought I wouldn't reply to her and told me if I didn't, she understood and to
take care - OF COURSE I REPLIED.
That's my "in ghetto words"...
ROAD DAWG. MY HOMIE. Lmao...
I met Sami (her name)... in high
school when I was walking through the cafeteria talking crap to people for fun.
Most people just laughed about it... Sami got crazy back and talked crap back to
me which made her a lot of fun to joke with. I loved that about her, and ever
since...that's what we do when we see each other! That's how we show our love
for each other. lmao...
Sami and I are very much close and a
little argument 3 years ago can't keep us away from each other.

She's been there for me plenty of times when I needed her. I've
been there for her the same. We've had our joking moments, we've had our serious
talks, personal talks, and such... and our friendship is deep.
My ex-husband
told me he saw her last year and she asked about me and the kids... she said she
was going to e-mail me but never did. I was waiting for it last year and nothing
and I was disappointed. She told me yesterday she wanted to, but didn't know if
she should or if I'd talk to her or not after what happened.

And, I won't lie... there was a few times I checked her
facebook page to see if she was happy, hurting, doing good... whatever... and I
was happy to know that she was doing well - even tho she lost her dogs that she
much loved. I wanted to hit her up and be there for her because I know the
feeling of losing a pet (and yes, It does mean just as much as losing a loved
one)... but, I didn't know if she would talk to me either.


Here's the thing... if you've read my previous
posts... you know that my best friend of 24 years and I had a small issue
recently and we stopped talking ... I value my friendships and don't just "let
them go", just like that... so I keep trying to make things right if I can...
and with Trish - ... I did that. We talked, and we're fine now. I would NOT just
let her walk out of my life without trying to find out why, or trying to save
the friendship.. and although I never expected Sami to email me yesterday, I
feel like her doing so - was my GOOD KARMA for not letting Trish walk out of my
life that easy, and ending the arguing between us as well... what goes around
REALLY DOES come back around. I saved mine and Trish's friendship..and Sami
saved mine and hers. :)  2 friendships I never wish to have end again.... I
think now that we're older and more mature... we're all realizing a lot of the
things we argue about are so stupid at times.
Hell, I regret
losing one of my coolest family members over ex-hubby and something he told me
years ago. 
When I argue with someone and we're not on speaking terms... It
doesn't sit well with me and I'm not okay with it.

I'm just
happy Sami did E-mail me yesterday and end the 3 year no speaking between us.



    Hmm... besides that...


   My parents are not doing well... it scares
the hell out of me. My mother is never feeling well.. she's weak, she's tired...
could have something going on with her Kidneys and such... Diabetes is getting
worse...
My dad... is losing his hair. Has a big patch missing.
He LOVES his hair and is always worried about it so for him to lose it... I
can't imagine how he feels ! 
He looks so old and tired, and
drained. Bags around his eyes and all.
I've had issues with my
parents when I was younger but all is forgiven - maybe not forgotten - but
forgiven..and of course, no child - no matter what they've been thru, wants to
see their parents like this.
Another thing on my mind...



My girls as I said - have
their birthday party Sunday so I'm trying to get everything together for that as
well.
I forgot my daughters facebook password since I changed
it a few weeks ago because she got GROUNDED from it... but, I'll be trying to
figure that out and invite her friends as well. Thankfully.. my brother is going
to help me out by picking some of them up. I had to laugh when I told him a few
BOYS might be coming. He's protective of his niece/God daughter... so when I
told him, he says, "Wait, you want me to pick up BOYS for my Niece and expect
them to make it to the party SAFELY?"... lmao... had me cracking up. It reminded
me of the movie BAD BOYS when WILL SMITH opens the door and sees his nieces
boyfriend and questions him like crazy.  I think as she gets older, my brothers
watchful-ness is going to get even more hectic. Poor kid! lmao...


     Not sure if I forgot anything or left
anything out but I believe I got everything that's been going on.


       Now, I want you all to put your hands
together while I look for a new job, new apartment, while the kids go back to
school, while my parents are dealing with their issues, and I'm dealing with my
health issues, and everything else I have going on, bills and all - and PRAY TO
GOD I KEEP MY SANITY!  LOL...

     Peace and
Love until the next time I get to
write...

"Shel".