Sharing a little info about myself.
My name is Sheila, but I've been called Shel for a while now , but those who are the closest to me and know me well - usually call me "Cookie"... I've been "Cookie" since high school and I don't that's going to change anytime soon... I was nicknamed "Cookie" in high school because of how sweet I am... (Yes, I am - shut up!)..lmao... seriously thou, whatever you want to call me - I'll answer to it...Sheila, Shel, Shelly, Cookie... I've been called Shela before.. whatever floats your boat as long as it's respectful !
So - on to more about me... If you know me, you really don't have to sit here and read all of this. If you haven't talked to me in a long time, seen me in a long time, or don't really know me and ended up here ... grab your cup of Coffee, Vodka, or Koolaid if you're under age... grab a chair - and enjoy !
Let's begin...
As you can see, I LOVE LOVE LOVE to write. Writing has been my passion for a long time now.. I write when I'm angry, hurt, upset, aggravated, sad, depressed, tired... bored... randomly... and for any reason... I write to vent, I write to share celebrations and happy days, I write to express graditude and feelings, emotions, I write to share an experience I've been through, something small that went on that day, something about my kids, being a mommy, sharing thoughts or things I find out, sharing things with other parents , sharing funny stories, I wrote for every-thing and anything... sometimes, I have nothing to write about and have learned that if I have nothing to write about - I can write about anything..and usually, that's where my random-ness comes in at... LOL.. I've been writing since 8th grade.. plays, journals, Diaries, letters, I've done it all.
I have been a blogger since 2004 when I discovered Xanga... I blogged on there for about 8 years or a little over and loved every minute of it until Xanga recently had to do a fund raiser to keep their site open, and because of it costing so much to keep their servers or what-not, they now charge to join...free if you've been on it ... but, they've made their sign in process so complicated since going to 2.0. - that I don't even mess with that anymore. I'm too old to be figuring out technology now. LMAO.... so , when they did that - I moved to Wordpress and tried LiveJournal..didn't like em.... I then found Weebly...and fell in love! I currently started blogging under BLOGGER.COM as well... because in the future..I'd love to become a part of a big community of Mommy bloggers...who (if you've been blogging for 4 months or more) can have your blog added to a list of other mom bloggers for the world to see... I would love to be a part of that list... I've been blogging here for about 2 months maybe ?? I don't recall exactly... but hopefully in the future, I can add this site to that list.
And, if you've found this...I hope you enjoy my writings..laugh with me, cry with me , share my adventures, and continue to come back and check in often for new writings/posts. I write often and as much as I can...
In 8th grade - I was voted MOST LIKELY TO BECOME A WRITER and I want to one day say to the class of 1996 - YOU GUYS WERE RIGHT!!!.... :)
I'm currently working on 3 different books and hope to be published and successfully sold-out in the near future...I guess you could say I'm an aspiring AUTHOR...make sense?! LOL... All I can do is write and pray that it all works out... and if not, I tried!!!
Besides that....
I'm currently 31 years old. I think I'm aging gracefully and not ashamed of my age. (Especially because all my kids friends think I'm their sister and not their mother)... lmao... um...HELL YEAH????!!! LOL...I love when they think I'm younger than I really am. Any way, I don't mind telling my age because it means more hair dye and less drama! As WANDA SYKES (Excellent comedian) says, "The older I get, the less I give a f*** "... Now, excuse my language and I don't mean to offend anyone or I would have wrote the whole word... but, when I agree with her and I say that myself... I just mean this : I'm too old for problems, drama, childish arguments, problems and so on and so on....and if you're in my life, I ask that if you want to stay in my life... you do not give me any of these because I will cut you out of my life, faster than you and I can both blink! I've been through too much in my life, seen too much and have worried too much to do that anymore... I will be 40 in 9 years and I want those next 9 years to be pleasant and happy for me. So - do not cause me any problems, because as much as I may love you, as cool as we may be... if you cause trouble in my life, I don't give a f*** and will make sure you're not in my life anymore. Sad to say! I have no time for negative people who try to bring me down, put me down, talk down on me, and have no good things to say because if you're "hating" as these youngin's call it now a days... or talking negative about me... I don't give a f*** - I only have one person that I need to make happy...and that's me... (4 if you count my beautiful children which of course, I do)... If I hear negativity, I'm going to let it roll of my shoulders now, and go in one ear - out the other because as I get older...I just don't have energy or time to be confronting anyone, worrying about anyone, or arguing with anyone. Positive people are the only ones who need to be in my life right now.... and with that being said... being 31 - I do have gray hair popping up.. I do dye my hair often but trying to give that a break now to let my REAL hair color come back .... LOL... and , I think from here on out.... I'm going to see how long I can do without dying it...right now, I have a four tone thing going on. I dyed my hair bright RED recently because everyone loved me either Red hair before... and now that the dye is wearing off, I have a Pink/Blonde/Light brown/Copper thing going on and I'm loving it! Lmao....
My skin is light colored , my eyes are Hazel, sometimes look Green in the sun light I've been told... and as I get older... worrying less about looks and more about my happiness... although of course..like any woman..I still take pride in looking and feeling my best. I feel like you love me for me, or not at all.
My personality is amazing now that I'm older and wiser. I admit ....I use to be a bratty bitch! No - really... I was!!! Ask anyone who knows me... I could be the sweetest thing in the world, stood up for people who couldn't or wouldn't stick up for themselves, such a loyal friend and always had someones back if they were cool with me, I was cool as hell - I did anything for anyone who was in need... and that's why I was nicknamed Cookie... but if you got on my bad side or I just didn't like you... if you got me mad .. I had a bad ass temper... I could be mean as hell and sarcastic / mouthy like no other... my mouth use to work faster than my brain... LMAO.. but those who knew me back then and knew the BITCH I could be or was... if I ever acted like that twords you... i'm sorry... I really am. I'm NOTHING like that today. I've changed a lot over the years. I've learned to be a lot calmer... deal with anger in a better way... and my temper isn't so bad anymore because as I said above... the older I get... the less drama I want or need. And... when I had my kids.. I didn't want them to be anything like I use to be... as the saying goes... "I'M NOT YET THE PERSON I NEED TO BE. ... BUT I THANK GOD I'M NOT THE PERSON I WAS!"... and 'tis so true in my situation. I'm no longer the BRAT who runs her mouth without thinking, or the BITCH who would gladly argue with someone she didn't like. I promise ...the person I am today is so cool, so calm, and respectful .... I know when to keep my mouth shut, I let my brain think of all consequences before running my mouth now, and I try to handle things in a manner I'd be proud of, and the way I'd want my kids to. I do thank God that the person I was / use to be... helps me be a better parent today because now I know how to handle my kids and what signs to look for when making sure they don't make the same mistakes I did as a bratty teenager and a young adult... I never want my kids to act like I did back in the days, and thus - I can teach them right from wrong and how not to be the way I was then. I admit... my kids have their moments, but they've even admitted I find out everything, know everything, and I'm constantly on their asses if they make mistakes and they know there's not much they can get away with because I've probably been there/done that and will NOT allow them to follow in my footsteps unless it's the success I'm going for now. :)
As I said... I do want to apologize to the people I may have hurt or offended in the past...get to know the new me before judging the old me, because that's not me anymore.
I also believe in God and Karma...pray often, Open the Bible when I have extra time... and try to do right... I enjoy helping others whenever I can from handing out money when I have extra... to paying for someones purchase if it's not too much and they're standing behind me in line....to stopping somewhere and buying a meal for a homeless person I see in the middle of the road begging for money to eat... I'll do whatever I can to help someone else. I giggle because Angel tells me not all people are good, and one of these days, I'm going to get myself killed trying to help who I thought was a good person - and I tell Angel, "Well then ...I'm sure Jesus will let me into Heaven because I died for the right reasons!"... he tells me I'm not funny..LOL... seriously tho, I have helped others many times, and have been helped by others in return because of it...and if you haven't done it yet..check out my post about "Karma"... it really does do what it says... What goes around , always comes back around to either help you when you expect it least and need it most.. or to bite you in the butt when you deserve it... ! I always try to go for that good karma so I believe in helping anyone who looks like they need it... even if one day, it does put my life in danger. I've always been told by my grandmother that you never know when it could be an Angel in disguise or God himself testing you! That's what I was raised with.
That being said... I love horses and horseback riding. I try to take my oldest kids when I can because I know they enjoy it as well - mostly my oldest daughter. She loves the sport... and horses as well... I love being at lake listening to the waves crash against the rocks and it also helps clear my mind and gives me a sense of peace when I need it... I love writing as you can see as I said before..I just got into painting and plan on creating a bunch of canvasses to try to sell my work - I enjoy meeting new people, helping others as I mentioned, reading a good book when I find one, dancing (Of course, a few cups of wine help) lmao... I enjoy learning new things, challenging myself when possible, Blogging - SHOPPING...whoever said money can't buy happiness has never been shopping..lmao...!! .... it makes me happy anyway... taking my kids out and seeing their faces when we travel to new spots, vacations, I love vacations and going out of town/state especially if I'm driving and the highway is empty.. :) - which brings me to driving... I love driving and currently working on renewing my license which just expired in June, and getting a new car hopefully soon. I love STARBUCKS and early morning coffee with breakfast... I enjoy anything fun and legal, watching movies, old school t.v. shows although I'm not a big fan of watching t.v. - spending time with my children and making them laugh and smile, spending time with family, friends although I haven't in a long time, MR. A . I enjoy BBQ's which is probably the best food on the planet next to Mexican and Greek foods. .. Love Horchata and Tres Leche cake... big fan of Baklava which is a Greek dessert... my favorite Ice cream is MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP... my favorite movies are BROWN SUGAR and how Stella got her groove back although there's tons of others I enjoy as well... my favorite holidays are HALLOWEEN AND CHRISTMAS... christmas always puts me in a better mood especially when 93.9 FM starts playing Christmas carols all day long ..every day...and I could sit here and go on forever and tell you everything about me... but I'd be here forever... LOL... so, if there's anything I left out that you're curious to know.. just ask / e- mail... I'd be happy to answer.
I'm a mom to three beautiful kids you'll read about on the "Meet my crew" section if you haven't already... Tiffanie is 13, Frankie is 10, and Kailani is 5... I think I have some amazing kids! They all make me laugh in some way or another... and they're all good kids.
I'm currently divorced . My ex-husband and I have just now started to be civil tword one another. I think he and I have had a lot of feelings of anger, hate, aggression, hurt, and disappointment for one another for a lot of reasons. He made mistakes, I made mistakes.. and neither one of us are innocent. I don't care what anyone thinks or says..we have BOTH done wrong to each other, said really hateful and mean shit to each other, and have just not been nice to each other at all. I think now - we're both dealing with coping, healing, and trying to do what's best for the kids because they've seen enough fighting..so we're trying to be civil and raise them together without actually being together. We're trying to do our best to handle schedules now that he's working crazy hours and I'm going to be doing the same... and we're both doing our best to share the kids, keep each other informed, and do what we have to do without letting our feelings and emotions get in the way. He's not a bad guy and although he likes to think I'm a bitch ...that's fine...I can only do what I have to do to be the best mother and person I can be without worrying what he thinks.
I'm also engaged to one of my good friends I've known for 12 years... it's a long story that maybe one day we'll go through, but not right now... I've known him for a long time, and he's a good guy. Works, tries his hardest to make me happy, and although he and I have been through hell as well - argued and all - we get through it.. He's tried the best he can to understand everything in my life and has accepted a lot, as I have as well for him. I don't know what's going to happen in the future... I don't know what'll go on - but I'm taking it day by day and letting the Lord guide me ... that's all I can do.
Hopefully in the future... the ex-husband and I can be really good friends, and do anything for each other to help if the other needs it because I know if he can be civil, I'll always be there for him in a friendship kind of way... and because our kids should have 2 parents who can get along for them...
and ... hopefully, if Mr. A and I do work out, (even thou we have issues as well)... hopefully... he and ex-hubby will one day be on good grounds as well to at least say hello and goodbye to each other...
and who knows - maybe ex-hubby will one day meet a great woman who loves him dearly and her and I can get along as well... I don't know what the future holds, but I pray to God it's all good things.
I'm tired of not being my happiest and I just want peace....
and if you didn't notice...I LOVE COFFEE/Cappuccino... and will usually be drinking a big cup as I write in the mornings ..which is the best time for me to write since I usually have silence...
I have a big family in many different states who I love dearly even if some of them and I don't talk .. or don't talk often..I'll always love my family.
I have amazing friends who have always had my back and have been there for me.
I'm a great friend and someone you want on your side when shit gets bad because I'll always stick up for you and have your back..I'm completely loyal and secrets stay with me til the grave if you're loyal in return...
I'm a person with a big heart but do not mistake my kindness for weakness because I do still have a little bit of temper in me if need be..and that side of me does not want to come out again..LOL... (Just sayin')....
I like to WWJD things now (look it up if you don't know..)..
and .... I'm just at the point of my life where Peace and happiness is my main concern!
I'm very forgiving now... the things I've been thru I take as learning experiences and lessons and move on from...
What else??
I currently applied for the Chicago Police dept. and not sure if I'll be accepted it or not, but my application was approved and I'm waiting to take the written exam I guess? Still haven't gotten an email as to when but fingers crossed... I've always wanted to do something within the Criminal Justice system, and believe if I can change at least one persons life..my job will be well worth it. My biggest goal is to do either Juvenile Probation..and my kids know how tough I am on them.. NO MEANS NO... and I've snuck up on them plenty of times before they could even THINK about doing something wrong..lmao.. they always ask how I know where they are and what they're going to do.. I tell them, "I'm like a blood hound... I smell wherever you guys go, and know what you do before you do it"... LOL... so I know I'll be great at that job..or...one thing I've always wanted to do, is work on the Gang Tactical unit... hopefully one day!
That being said... I hope this gives you an idea of who I am, and I'm very friendly..don't be scared to say Hi... I promise... you won't regret it.
Peace and Love as I always say...
Shel.
So - on to more about me... If you know me, you really don't have to sit here and read all of this. If you haven't talked to me in a long time, seen me in a long time, or don't really know me and ended up here ... grab your cup of Coffee, Vodka, or Koolaid if you're under age... grab a chair - and enjoy !
Let's begin...
As you can see, I LOVE LOVE LOVE to write. Writing has been my passion for a long time now.. I write when I'm angry, hurt, upset, aggravated, sad, depressed, tired... bored... randomly... and for any reason... I write to vent, I write to share celebrations and happy days, I write to express graditude and feelings, emotions, I write to share an experience I've been through, something small that went on that day, something about my kids, being a mommy, sharing thoughts or things I find out, sharing things with other parents , sharing funny stories, I wrote for every-thing and anything... sometimes, I have nothing to write about and have learned that if I have nothing to write about - I can write about anything..and usually, that's where my random-ness comes in at... LOL.. I've been writing since 8th grade.. plays, journals, Diaries, letters, I've done it all.
I have been a blogger since 2004 when I discovered Xanga... I blogged on there for about 8 years or a little over and loved every minute of it until Xanga recently had to do a fund raiser to keep their site open, and because of it costing so much to keep their servers or what-not, they now charge to join...free if you've been on it ... but, they've made their sign in process so complicated since going to 2.0. - that I don't even mess with that anymore. I'm too old to be figuring out technology now. LMAO.... so , when they did that - I moved to Wordpress and tried LiveJournal..didn't like em.... I then found Weebly...and fell in love! I currently started blogging under BLOGGER.COM as well... because in the future..I'd love to become a part of a big community of Mommy bloggers...who (if you've been blogging for 4 months or more) can have your blog added to a list of other mom bloggers for the world to see... I would love to be a part of that list... I've been blogging here for about 2 months maybe ?? I don't recall exactly... but hopefully in the future, I can add this site to that list.
And, if you've found this...I hope you enjoy my writings..laugh with me, cry with me , share my adventures, and continue to come back and check in often for new writings/posts. I write often and as much as I can...
In 8th grade - I was voted MOST LIKELY TO BECOME A WRITER and I want to one day say to the class of 1996 - YOU GUYS WERE RIGHT!!!.... :)
I'm currently working on 3 different books and hope to be published and successfully sold-out in the near future...I guess you could say I'm an aspiring AUTHOR...make sense?! LOL... All I can do is write and pray that it all works out... and if not, I tried!!!
Besides that....
I'm currently 31 years old. I think I'm aging gracefully and not ashamed of my age. (Especially because all my kids friends think I'm their sister and not their mother)... lmao... um...HELL YEAH????!!! LOL...I love when they think I'm younger than I really am. Any way, I don't mind telling my age because it means more hair dye and less drama! As WANDA SYKES (Excellent comedian) says, "The older I get, the less I give a f*** "... Now, excuse my language and I don't mean to offend anyone or I would have wrote the whole word... but, when I agree with her and I say that myself... I just mean this : I'm too old for problems, drama, childish arguments, problems and so on and so on....and if you're in my life, I ask that if you want to stay in my life... you do not give me any of these because I will cut you out of my life, faster than you and I can both blink! I've been through too much in my life, seen too much and have worried too much to do that anymore... I will be 40 in 9 years and I want those next 9 years to be pleasant and happy for me. So - do not cause me any problems, because as much as I may love you, as cool as we may be... if you cause trouble in my life, I don't give a f*** and will make sure you're not in my life anymore. Sad to say! I have no time for negative people who try to bring me down, put me down, talk down on me, and have no good things to say because if you're "hating" as these youngin's call it now a days... or talking negative about me... I don't give a f*** - I only have one person that I need to make happy...and that's me... (4 if you count my beautiful children which of course, I do)... If I hear negativity, I'm going to let it roll of my shoulders now, and go in one ear - out the other because as I get older...I just don't have energy or time to be confronting anyone, worrying about anyone, or arguing with anyone. Positive people are the only ones who need to be in my life right now.... and with that being said... being 31 - I do have gray hair popping up.. I do dye my hair often but trying to give that a break now to let my REAL hair color come back .... LOL... and , I think from here on out.... I'm going to see how long I can do without dying it...right now, I have a four tone thing going on. I dyed my hair bright RED recently because everyone loved me either Red hair before... and now that the dye is wearing off, I have a Pink/Blonde/Light brown/Copper thing going on and I'm loving it! Lmao....
My skin is light colored , my eyes are Hazel, sometimes look Green in the sun light I've been told... and as I get older... worrying less about looks and more about my happiness... although of course..like any woman..I still take pride in looking and feeling my best. I feel like you love me for me, or not at all.
My personality is amazing now that I'm older and wiser. I admit ....I use to be a bratty bitch! No - really... I was!!! Ask anyone who knows me... I could be the sweetest thing in the world, stood up for people who couldn't or wouldn't stick up for themselves, such a loyal friend and always had someones back if they were cool with me, I was cool as hell - I did anything for anyone who was in need... and that's why I was nicknamed Cookie... but if you got on my bad side or I just didn't like you... if you got me mad .. I had a bad ass temper... I could be mean as hell and sarcastic / mouthy like no other... my mouth use to work faster than my brain... LMAO.. but those who knew me back then and knew the BITCH I could be or was... if I ever acted like that twords you... i'm sorry... I really am. I'm NOTHING like that today. I've changed a lot over the years. I've learned to be a lot calmer... deal with anger in a better way... and my temper isn't so bad anymore because as I said above... the older I get... the less drama I want or need. And... when I had my kids.. I didn't want them to be anything like I use to be... as the saying goes... "I'M NOT YET THE PERSON I NEED TO BE. ... BUT I THANK GOD I'M NOT THE PERSON I WAS!"... and 'tis so true in my situation. I'm no longer the BRAT who runs her mouth without thinking, or the BITCH who would gladly argue with someone she didn't like. I promise ...the person I am today is so cool, so calm, and respectful .... I know when to keep my mouth shut, I let my brain think of all consequences before running my mouth now, and I try to handle things in a manner I'd be proud of, and the way I'd want my kids to. I do thank God that the person I was / use to be... helps me be a better parent today because now I know how to handle my kids and what signs to look for when making sure they don't make the same mistakes I did as a bratty teenager and a young adult... I never want my kids to act like I did back in the days, and thus - I can teach them right from wrong and how not to be the way I was then. I admit... my kids have their moments, but they've even admitted I find out everything, know everything, and I'm constantly on their asses if they make mistakes and they know there's not much they can get away with because I've probably been there/done that and will NOT allow them to follow in my footsteps unless it's the success I'm going for now. :)
As I said... I do want to apologize to the people I may have hurt or offended in the past...get to know the new me before judging the old me, because that's not me anymore.
I also believe in God and Karma...pray often, Open the Bible when I have extra time... and try to do right... I enjoy helping others whenever I can from handing out money when I have extra... to paying for someones purchase if it's not too much and they're standing behind me in line....to stopping somewhere and buying a meal for a homeless person I see in the middle of the road begging for money to eat... I'll do whatever I can to help someone else. I giggle because Angel tells me not all people are good, and one of these days, I'm going to get myself killed trying to help who I thought was a good person - and I tell Angel, "Well then ...I'm sure Jesus will let me into Heaven because I died for the right reasons!"... he tells me I'm not funny..LOL... seriously tho, I have helped others many times, and have been helped by others in return because of it...and if you haven't done it yet..check out my post about "Karma"... it really does do what it says... What goes around , always comes back around to either help you when you expect it least and need it most.. or to bite you in the butt when you deserve it... ! I always try to go for that good karma so I believe in helping anyone who looks like they need it... even if one day, it does put my life in danger. I've always been told by my grandmother that you never know when it could be an Angel in disguise or God himself testing you! That's what I was raised with.
That being said... I love horses and horseback riding. I try to take my oldest kids when I can because I know they enjoy it as well - mostly my oldest daughter. She loves the sport... and horses as well... I love being at lake listening to the waves crash against the rocks and it also helps clear my mind and gives me a sense of peace when I need it... I love writing as you can see as I said before..I just got into painting and plan on creating a bunch of canvasses to try to sell my work - I enjoy meeting new people, helping others as I mentioned, reading a good book when I find one, dancing (Of course, a few cups of wine help) lmao... I enjoy learning new things, challenging myself when possible, Blogging - SHOPPING...whoever said money can't buy happiness has never been shopping..lmao...!! .... it makes me happy anyway... taking my kids out and seeing their faces when we travel to new spots, vacations, I love vacations and going out of town/state especially if I'm driving and the highway is empty.. :) - which brings me to driving... I love driving and currently working on renewing my license which just expired in June, and getting a new car hopefully soon. I love STARBUCKS and early morning coffee with breakfast... I enjoy anything fun and legal, watching movies, old school t.v. shows although I'm not a big fan of watching t.v. - spending time with my children and making them laugh and smile, spending time with family, friends although I haven't in a long time, MR. A . I enjoy BBQ's which is probably the best food on the planet next to Mexican and Greek foods. .. Love Horchata and Tres Leche cake... big fan of Baklava which is a Greek dessert... my favorite Ice cream is MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP... my favorite movies are BROWN SUGAR and how Stella got her groove back although there's tons of others I enjoy as well... my favorite holidays are HALLOWEEN AND CHRISTMAS... christmas always puts me in a better mood especially when 93.9 FM starts playing Christmas carols all day long ..every day...and I could sit here and go on forever and tell you everything about me... but I'd be here forever... LOL... so, if there's anything I left out that you're curious to know.. just ask / e- mail... I'd be happy to answer.
I'm a mom to three beautiful kids you'll read about on the "Meet my crew" section if you haven't already... Tiffanie is 13, Frankie is 10, and Kailani is 5... I think I have some amazing kids! They all make me laugh in some way or another... and they're all good kids.
I'm currently divorced . My ex-husband and I have just now started to be civil tword one another. I think he and I have had a lot of feelings of anger, hate, aggression, hurt, and disappointment for one another for a lot of reasons. He made mistakes, I made mistakes.. and neither one of us are innocent. I don't care what anyone thinks or says..we have BOTH done wrong to each other, said really hateful and mean shit to each other, and have just not been nice to each other at all. I think now - we're both dealing with coping, healing, and trying to do what's best for the kids because they've seen enough fighting..so we're trying to be civil and raise them together without actually being together. We're trying to do our best to handle schedules now that he's working crazy hours and I'm going to be doing the same... and we're both doing our best to share the kids, keep each other informed, and do what we have to do without letting our feelings and emotions get in the way. He's not a bad guy and although he likes to think I'm a bitch ...that's fine...I can only do what I have to do to be the best mother and person I can be without worrying what he thinks.
I'm also engaged to one of my good friends I've known for 12 years... it's a long story that maybe one day we'll go through, but not right now... I've known him for a long time, and he's a good guy. Works, tries his hardest to make me happy, and although he and I have been through hell as well - argued and all - we get through it.. He's tried the best he can to understand everything in my life and has accepted a lot, as I have as well for him. I don't know what's going to happen in the future... I don't know what'll go on - but I'm taking it day by day and letting the Lord guide me ... that's all I can do.
Hopefully in the future... the ex-husband and I can be really good friends, and do anything for each other to help if the other needs it because I know if he can be civil, I'll always be there for him in a friendship kind of way... and because our kids should have 2 parents who can get along for them...
and ... hopefully, if Mr. A and I do work out, (even thou we have issues as well)... hopefully... he and ex-hubby will one day be on good grounds as well to at least say hello and goodbye to each other...
and who knows - maybe ex-hubby will one day meet a great woman who loves him dearly and her and I can get along as well... I don't know what the future holds, but I pray to God it's all good things.
I'm tired of not being my happiest and I just want peace....
and if you didn't notice...I LOVE COFFEE/Cappuccino... and will usually be drinking a big cup as I write in the mornings ..which is the best time for me to write since I usually have silence...
I have a big family in many different states who I love dearly even if some of them and I don't talk .. or don't talk often..I'll always love my family.
I have amazing friends who have always had my back and have been there for me.
I'm a great friend and someone you want on your side when shit gets bad because I'll always stick up for you and have your back..I'm completely loyal and secrets stay with me til the grave if you're loyal in return...
I'm a person with a big heart but do not mistake my kindness for weakness because I do still have a little bit of temper in me if need be..and that side of me does not want to come out again..LOL... (Just sayin')....
I like to WWJD things now (look it up if you don't know..)..
and .... I'm just at the point of my life where Peace and happiness is my main concern!
I'm very forgiving now... the things I've been thru I take as learning experiences and lessons and move on from...
What else??
I currently applied for the Chicago Police dept. and not sure if I'll be accepted it or not, but my application was approved and I'm waiting to take the written exam I guess? Still haven't gotten an email as to when but fingers crossed... I've always wanted to do something within the Criminal Justice system, and believe if I can change at least one persons life..my job will be well worth it. My biggest goal is to do either Juvenile Probation..and my kids know how tough I am on them.. NO MEANS NO... and I've snuck up on them plenty of times before they could even THINK about doing something wrong..lmao.. they always ask how I know where they are and what they're going to do.. I tell them, "I'm like a blood hound... I smell wherever you guys go, and know what you do before you do it"... LOL... so I know I'll be great at that job..or...one thing I've always wanted to do, is work on the Gang Tactical unit... hopefully one day!
That being said... I hope this gives you an idea of who I am, and I'm very friendly..don't be scared to say Hi... I promise... you won't regret it.
Peace and Love as I always say...
Shel.