I saw this on Pinterest today and fell in love with the quote... I think for a
long time I've let my fears become bigger than my faith and didn't really take
chances on changing my life for the better even if I knew there were things I
could do to make my life better, things I could improve on, or things I could do
to make a hell of a lot of money.. because I've had that fear that "what if I
didn't succeed", what IF I failed? What if thing didn't work out the way I
planned them? So - I've always kind of just hung back on the things I've wanted
to do to make my life better... and , didn't really "Go for it'....
I was once told that God helps those who help themselves and
for a while, I was losing my faith and felt like "Is there even a God up
there?".... I know how wrong I was to think that and I've always believed in
God, Miracles, and how things happen when you least expect them and need his
help the most.... but, today when I saw this quote... I realized this is why I'm
not living the life I should be/want to be/deserve.... because, my faith hasn't
been bigger than my fears... my fears have been bigger than my faith lately...
and I have to stop that...
I remember one day
this week joking with a good friend about how I need more money and how I
remember when I use to be "balling" as most people call it... when I was rich
enough to go shopping daily.. put gas in my car and fill up the tank..take the
kids wherever they wanted to go, etc. etc. etc. because I was working a damn
good job - 40 - sometimes 50 hours per week, and made over $900 sometimes... I
really got paid good... $1,800 or more monthly... and then when I quit that job
because I was an idiot and got into a stupid argument with the boss one day over
a desk.. Yes, I said a desk (long story)... I thought I could be a "baller" on
my own... but, even thou I've had good jobs...nothing added up to the good job I
did have and let go of... and I always say how I want to be a "baller" like that
again, and be able to have money in the bank beyond needs and wants, and be able
to do anything I need or want...not having to worry about financial
sssshhhh..... well, joking with this friend one day, I also joked about how I
use to baby sit and be a nanny for Strippers and escorts, and professional
models.. Yes - it's true.... and , because they make excellent money... I also
made excellent money because I knew they were getting paid nightly, so I was
getting paid nightly... sometimes $200 a night just to watch all these kids...
once again, I was a "baller" ...... I felt great..... but ... I never thought ,
"These kids are going to get older, and go to school, and won't need me
anymore"..... so when they did - it was another job I lost and wasn't "balling"
like I was being a nanny... or at my previous job... so, when that stopped... I
realized the only way I was going to be a baller and have all this money again..
was to work two or three jobs and bust my ass workin long hours, holidays,
weekends, etc. etc. etc. and that's what I've been trying to do now...
Where am I going with this?
Well joking around with my good friend this
week, we were talking about how I use to get all this money from just being the
nanny to the kids of stripper moms, escort moms, and model moms.. and how that
stopped when the kids got older..I said I should go stand outside of a few strip
clubs, and hand out my 'nanny business cards'. I laughed about it but she was
dead serious and told me, "Girl, you should..you know how much money you would
probably make from stripper moms who have nobody to watch their kids and can't
go to work sometimes....?"... of course, I haven't done that yet, but trust
me... it's in the works... I can make as much as strippers and not have to
strip??? YES PLEASE! LMAO....
I know, I'm silly... but hey, I
love kids, I'm good at being a nanny... so why not? I will be going on
VistaPrint next week sometime - I believe that's the site - for business cards,
and ordering some... to see how it goes if I do hand out my card.. and not just
to strippers and escorts.. but to moms on the streets, moms in the mall...
whoever has a kid . .. they're getting my card! This has been one of my biggest
wants - but fears at the same time... I've thought about handing out cards to do
something I'm so good at and getting moms to call me for my business... but I've
had this fear of rejection or that moms would just look at me like, "who is this
stranger? I'm not leaving my kids with her".... but surprisingly, smiling,
shaking a moms hand, playing with her kid a little bit, and introducing who I am
and what I do... knowing I have experience with this.... if my professional card
gets me even a few moms that call and need my services, and I can make extra
cash.. save it up.. and do what I gotta do.. why the hell not? It's all about
motivation and having big faith and small fears... I refuse to let my fears of
rejection or whatever I fear... hold me back from possibly making some really
good money at something I'm really good at.... I have wanted to hand out my
number/card/etc. for a while now to be a nanny again... (for extra cash on the
side because this is not a real job in my eyes and it's only something I would
do for fun and cash).... so, I'm going to have cards printed out, and I'm just
going to introduce myself to moms everywhere.. hand out my card, and if they
call.. they call and get a great nanny and I get extra cash.. if they don't... I
tried and didn't let my fears hold me back... I have big faith as I said, and
it's time to start letting my faith be bigger than my fears , dang it! LOL....
Now.... along with this... I
have been wanting to become an Assistant Manager / Boss / Manager... I don't
care what it is as long as I'm in a positon of power and control...and I swear
to myself and my future employees to be the best damn Boss I can be.. .to be
fair and understanding, and just really cool... I have had the biggest fear of
applying for Boss/Management positions because I wasn't really sure how I would
be , if I would be any good doing this kind of thing, or what... but, training
is provided for ALL positions of power like that I'm sure... and , I'm def. a
fast learner and can be trained for anything... how hard could it be? So, last
night while looking for good jobs online... I decided not only am I going to
apply to the regular positons I have experience with, but after seeing the above
quote about how you should let your FAITH be bigger than your fears... I def.
took the challenge, felt like it was telling me something and I went for
it...hell, when I use to work at a retail place and my big boss wasn't there,
the assistant manager gave me the big bosses roles and let me make bank runs
with all that cash...let me decide who works when, and who goes on scheduled
lunches when, who does what, etc... I did that... so, it's not like I've never
did anything management related..LOL... I applied for management and Assistant
management positions as well last night ... and , I decided once again, to let
my faith be bigger than my fears. I'm not going to let the fear of not being
sure if I'll be a good boss or whatever hold me back... I'm going to "go for
it"...and that's what I did.... I went for it... I applied for a few boss
positions and why the hell not??? I'm smart as hell...I'm educated...and I'm
loyal... I can do the job. It can't be that hard, can it?
Today, I walked into an office of a hotel,
and was going to ask a question, but before I could, I started talking to the
maid and she said something about how she's working alone today so she's got all
this stuff to do, etc. etc. etc. I told her if she needed help, I would... (out
of the kindness of my heart)... and because I have nothing else to do today..
LOL... and , God helps those who helps others as well... KARMA ..I 100% believe
in Karma.. and I wrote a post about it below some-where... any way, I knew if I
do something good for someone else... God would eventually do something good for
me, and he did... I didn't expect him to work THAT FAST... but, I'm not
complaining . LMAO...
while I'm looking for ways to make extra
money any way I can to pay my city tickets and get a new car (since the state of
IL. was nice enough to UN-CANCEL my license and give it back)...lmao... I was
offered a job at the hotel. I didn't expect it at all as I said, and I believe
God knows while sitting up there, that I'm looking for any way I can to make
extra cash down here to get my finances sorted out... and he helped me faster
than I can blink when I was going to help that maid... As I mentioned something
about me being able to help and do it... before she could even answer, the hotel
owner asked if I was looking for a job. I said I was looking for a way to earn
extra money on the side to pay tickets, and work through financial junk, bills
and such...and she offered me a job! She asked if I wanted to help her maids...
now, usually I would turn up my nose and think, "Me? Helping maids??? I'm not a
maid... I don't like the thought of it... I'm my kids' maid!! "... lmao.. and
that's all the maid I plan to be until they're 18... but, right now.. even
helping the maids at the hotel doesn't seem so bad if I want to make more money
and get my stuff paid and get a car...
Not
only that.... GOD IS UP THERE! HE REALLY IS, and I'm ashamed of myself for
questioning his existance recently because on t.v. now..they have a promotion
going on that if you can pay $40 a week and put down $40 ..... you drive out of
there with a brand new car. Doesn't matter what kind of job you have, how long
you've been on it, what kind of credit, etc. if you can do the 40/40 thing...
you drive! Lord knows I can not afford a huge car note right now but he knows I
need a new car, so with being offered this position helping the maids because
sometimes, there's only one working and doing everything... and with the 40/40
deal... and with how hard God sees I've been trying and putting my faith before
my fears to help myself get what I need... I think he works in 100% mysterious
ways and is now helping me because he sees me helping myselfs and others.... I
think that sums it up the best way I know how.... LOL... I told her I would love
to help her maids for extra cash and she told me how much it pays, and that it's
mornings, which means by the late afternoon, I can have my 2nd job with no
problem... this is what I laugh at.
She told me she would talk
to her husband which hires and fires.. and let me know. She's suppose to contact
me. She had her office door open and instead of talking to her through the
window... I marched right into her office and talked to her there, told her I
would gladly accept this job for extra money, told her how much I needed it, and
to please talk to him and let me know ASAP... I don't care what I have to do as
long as my tickets get paid and I get a brand new car. She was amazed at my
confidence.. hell, I was shocked at my confidence and stood there until she
agreed to contact me ASAP... that's exactly when I knew that I was 100% starting
to put my faith before my fears because my fears would have never allowed me to
step into her office without being asked, and make sure she contact me asap!
That was all confidence and faith right there... and I see how much good putting
my faith above fears is doing for me...
Great
lesson learned and that's where I plan to keep my faith....ABOVE MY FEARS from
now on.... my fears are only going to hold me back financially and in life... so
with this being said... all of you reading this who think you can't do
something, are afraid to do something , are afraid to take chances to go for
what you want because of those fears... take my advice..take the quotes
advice... PUT YOUR FAITH BEFORE YOUR FEARS AND GO FOR IT...take the chance... it
has gotten me so far in such a short amount of time... and I expect more to
come...
This faith over
fears thing is pretty awesome.... :)
My
words of wisdom for today...and besides that, this awful cold I have is kicking
my butt. Mr. A - decided to turn the A/C on, then off, then the heat, the A/c,
THEN the heat... then I want the A/C on and off... it's just nuts.. and with
this changing weather.. it's even worse. so, I have this cold now.. stuffing up
my nose, getting to my head, and throat and all the above.. ! Good lord.....
Enough about that....
May you
all have a blessed, happy weekend if I don't get to write .... and
remember...
FAITH OVER FEARS! I can't stress that enough now!
Shel.
long time I've let my fears become bigger than my faith and didn't really take
chances on changing my life for the better even if I knew there were things I
could do to make my life better, things I could improve on, or things I could do
to make a hell of a lot of money.. because I've had that fear that "what if I
didn't succeed", what IF I failed? What if thing didn't work out the way I
planned them? So - I've always kind of just hung back on the things I've wanted
to do to make my life better... and , didn't really "Go for it'....
I was once told that God helps those who help themselves and
for a while, I was losing my faith and felt like "Is there even a God up
there?".... I know how wrong I was to think that and I've always believed in
God, Miracles, and how things happen when you least expect them and need his
help the most.... but, today when I saw this quote... I realized this is why I'm
not living the life I should be/want to be/deserve.... because, my faith hasn't
been bigger than my fears... my fears have been bigger than my faith lately...
and I have to stop that...
I remember one day
this week joking with a good friend about how I need more money and how I
remember when I use to be "balling" as most people call it... when I was rich
enough to go shopping daily.. put gas in my car and fill up the tank..take the
kids wherever they wanted to go, etc. etc. etc. because I was working a damn
good job - 40 - sometimes 50 hours per week, and made over $900 sometimes... I
really got paid good... $1,800 or more monthly... and then when I quit that job
because I was an idiot and got into a stupid argument with the boss one day over
a desk.. Yes, I said a desk (long story)... I thought I could be a "baller" on
my own... but, even thou I've had good jobs...nothing added up to the good job I
did have and let go of... and I always say how I want to be a "baller" like that
again, and be able to have money in the bank beyond needs and wants, and be able
to do anything I need or want...not having to worry about financial
sssshhhh..... well, joking with this friend one day, I also joked about how I
use to baby sit and be a nanny for Strippers and escorts, and professional
models.. Yes - it's true.... and , because they make excellent money... I also
made excellent money because I knew they were getting paid nightly, so I was
getting paid nightly... sometimes $200 a night just to watch all these kids...
once again, I was a "baller" ...... I felt great..... but ... I never thought ,
"These kids are going to get older, and go to school, and won't need me
anymore"..... so when they did - it was another job I lost and wasn't "balling"
like I was being a nanny... or at my previous job... so, when that stopped... I
realized the only way I was going to be a baller and have all this money again..
was to work two or three jobs and bust my ass workin long hours, holidays,
weekends, etc. etc. etc. and that's what I've been trying to do now...
Where am I going with this?
Well joking around with my good friend this
week, we were talking about how I use to get all this money from just being the
nanny to the kids of stripper moms, escort moms, and model moms.. and how that
stopped when the kids got older..I said I should go stand outside of a few strip
clubs, and hand out my 'nanny business cards'. I laughed about it but she was
dead serious and told me, "Girl, you should..you know how much money you would
probably make from stripper moms who have nobody to watch their kids and can't
go to work sometimes....?"... of course, I haven't done that yet, but trust
me... it's in the works... I can make as much as strippers and not have to
strip??? YES PLEASE! LMAO....
I know, I'm silly... but hey, I
love kids, I'm good at being a nanny... so why not? I will be going on
VistaPrint next week sometime - I believe that's the site - for business cards,
and ordering some... to see how it goes if I do hand out my card.. and not just
to strippers and escorts.. but to moms on the streets, moms in the mall...
whoever has a kid . .. they're getting my card! This has been one of my biggest
wants - but fears at the same time... I've thought about handing out cards to do
something I'm so good at and getting moms to call me for my business... but I've
had this fear of rejection or that moms would just look at me like, "who is this
stranger? I'm not leaving my kids with her".... but surprisingly, smiling,
shaking a moms hand, playing with her kid a little bit, and introducing who I am
and what I do... knowing I have experience with this.... if my professional card
gets me even a few moms that call and need my services, and I can make extra
cash.. save it up.. and do what I gotta do.. why the hell not? It's all about
motivation and having big faith and small fears... I refuse to let my fears of
rejection or whatever I fear... hold me back from possibly making some really
good money at something I'm really good at.... I have wanted to hand out my
number/card/etc. for a while now to be a nanny again... (for extra cash on the
side because this is not a real job in my eyes and it's only something I would
do for fun and cash).... so, I'm going to have cards printed out, and I'm just
going to introduce myself to moms everywhere.. hand out my card, and if they
call.. they call and get a great nanny and I get extra cash.. if they don't... I
tried and didn't let my fears hold me back... I have big faith as I said, and
it's time to start letting my faith be bigger than my fears , dang it! LOL....
Now.... along with this... I
have been wanting to become an Assistant Manager / Boss / Manager... I don't
care what it is as long as I'm in a positon of power and control...and I swear
to myself and my future employees to be the best damn Boss I can be.. .to be
fair and understanding, and just really cool... I have had the biggest fear of
applying for Boss/Management positions because I wasn't really sure how I would
be , if I would be any good doing this kind of thing, or what... but, training
is provided for ALL positions of power like that I'm sure... and , I'm def. a
fast learner and can be trained for anything... how hard could it be? So, last
night while looking for good jobs online... I decided not only am I going to
apply to the regular positons I have experience with, but after seeing the above
quote about how you should let your FAITH be bigger than your fears... I def.
took the challenge, felt like it was telling me something and I went for
it...hell, when I use to work at a retail place and my big boss wasn't there,
the assistant manager gave me the big bosses roles and let me make bank runs
with all that cash...let me decide who works when, and who goes on scheduled
lunches when, who does what, etc... I did that... so, it's not like I've never
did anything management related..LOL... I applied for management and Assistant
management positions as well last night ... and , I decided once again, to let
my faith be bigger than my fears. I'm not going to let the fear of not being
sure if I'll be a good boss or whatever hold me back... I'm going to "go for
it"...and that's what I did.... I went for it... I applied for a few boss
positions and why the hell not??? I'm smart as hell...I'm educated...and I'm
loyal... I can do the job. It can't be that hard, can it?
Today, I walked into an office of a hotel,
and was going to ask a question, but before I could, I started talking to the
maid and she said something about how she's working alone today so she's got all
this stuff to do, etc. etc. etc. I told her if she needed help, I would... (out
of the kindness of my heart)... and because I have nothing else to do today..
LOL... and , God helps those who helps others as well... KARMA ..I 100% believe
in Karma.. and I wrote a post about it below some-where... any way, I knew if I
do something good for someone else... God would eventually do something good for
me, and he did... I didn't expect him to work THAT FAST... but, I'm not
complaining . LMAO...
while I'm looking for ways to make extra
money any way I can to pay my city tickets and get a new car (since the state of
IL. was nice enough to UN-CANCEL my license and give it back)...lmao... I was
offered a job at the hotel. I didn't expect it at all as I said, and I believe
God knows while sitting up there, that I'm looking for any way I can to make
extra cash down here to get my finances sorted out... and he helped me faster
than I can blink when I was going to help that maid... As I mentioned something
about me being able to help and do it... before she could even answer, the hotel
owner asked if I was looking for a job. I said I was looking for a way to earn
extra money on the side to pay tickets, and work through financial junk, bills
and such...and she offered me a job! She asked if I wanted to help her maids...
now, usually I would turn up my nose and think, "Me? Helping maids??? I'm not a
maid... I don't like the thought of it... I'm my kids' maid!! "... lmao.. and
that's all the maid I plan to be until they're 18... but, right now.. even
helping the maids at the hotel doesn't seem so bad if I want to make more money
and get my stuff paid and get a car...
Not
only that.... GOD IS UP THERE! HE REALLY IS, and I'm ashamed of myself for
questioning his existance recently because on t.v. now..they have a promotion
going on that if you can pay $40 a week and put down $40 ..... you drive out of
there with a brand new car. Doesn't matter what kind of job you have, how long
you've been on it, what kind of credit, etc. if you can do the 40/40 thing...
you drive! Lord knows I can not afford a huge car note right now but he knows I
need a new car, so with being offered this position helping the maids because
sometimes, there's only one working and doing everything... and with the 40/40
deal... and with how hard God sees I've been trying and putting my faith before
my fears to help myself get what I need... I think he works in 100% mysterious
ways and is now helping me because he sees me helping myselfs and others.... I
think that sums it up the best way I know how.... LOL... I told her I would love
to help her maids for extra cash and she told me how much it pays, and that it's
mornings, which means by the late afternoon, I can have my 2nd job with no
problem... this is what I laugh at.
She told me she would talk
to her husband which hires and fires.. and let me know. She's suppose to contact
me. She had her office door open and instead of talking to her through the
window... I marched right into her office and talked to her there, told her I
would gladly accept this job for extra money, told her how much I needed it, and
to please talk to him and let me know ASAP... I don't care what I have to do as
long as my tickets get paid and I get a brand new car. She was amazed at my
confidence.. hell, I was shocked at my confidence and stood there until she
agreed to contact me ASAP... that's exactly when I knew that I was 100% starting
to put my faith before my fears because my fears would have never allowed me to
step into her office without being asked, and make sure she contact me asap!
That was all confidence and faith right there... and I see how much good putting
my faith above fears is doing for me...
Great
lesson learned and that's where I plan to keep my faith....ABOVE MY FEARS from
now on.... my fears are only going to hold me back financially and in life... so
with this being said... all of you reading this who think you can't do
something, are afraid to do something , are afraid to take chances to go for
what you want because of those fears... take my advice..take the quotes
advice... PUT YOUR FAITH BEFORE YOUR FEARS AND GO FOR IT...take the chance... it
has gotten me so far in such a short amount of time... and I expect more to
come...
This faith over
fears thing is pretty awesome.... :)
My
words of wisdom for today...and besides that, this awful cold I have is kicking
my butt. Mr. A - decided to turn the A/C on, then off, then the heat, the A/c,
THEN the heat... then I want the A/C on and off... it's just nuts.. and with
this changing weather.. it's even worse. so, I have this cold now.. stuffing up
my nose, getting to my head, and throat and all the above.. ! Good lord.....
Enough about that....
May you
all have a blessed, happy weekend if I don't get to write .... and
remember...
FAITH OVER FEARS! I can't stress that enough now!
Shel.
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