Last night, I was thinking what an awful blogger I am.
I don't mean that in the sense of
my writings, because I'm sarcastically funny / entertaining / sometimes serious,
and know how to write. I LOVE LOVE LOVE writing and it's my passion... so , I
know how to put words together as a blog... I LOVE to blog... but when I say I'm
an awful blogger...I pretty much mean that sometimes, I don't have much to write
about because my life isn't that entertaining at the moment.
I'm looking for a new job, I'm looking for a new apartment, I'm
going through a lot of stuff, but none I care to talk about right now... and ,
my life is pretty boring at the moment... besides my kids making me laugh, doing
silly things, and me having to be tough with them sometimes, there's not much
else that goes on in my life that I feel is worth the "talk".... but, last night
- as I was lying in bed in pain from my back and my head... (lower back from a
fall - and head from a recent head injury/Concussion I suffered last week)... I
was thinking about how much pain I was in, how emotionally drained I am from
everything going on, and a thousand different ways my life could go right now,
and I did NOT feel like smiling. Actually , I felt like crying... I felt like
crying for so many different reasons ... and I decided instead - to read one of
my favorite MOMMY BLOGGERS... I like to read different blogs of women who write
from church goer's, to other mothers, to wives, divorced women, engaged women,
stay at home women, women with their own business's, I just like to read what
other women have to say... (I say women because it's very rare to find a DADDY
BLOG or guys who keep blogs)... I have a whole list of other women's blogs I
enjoy reading.... and last night, when I was depressed, feeling down and out,
and wanting to cry.... I wanted to write at the same time.. but , felt like I
had nothing interesting to say at the moment.
Well, when I read this MOMMY BLOG of this
woman I enjoy reading - her writing from a while ago had me laughing to the
point of tears...her pictures were hilirious and went along with her story...
and she just wrote what happened to her in such a fantastic way, that made me
smile when I didn't want to... and inspired me because I realized that even when
I don't have anything to write about.... I can write about anything!!!! Funny,
sad, silly stories, things that have happened in my life, experiences, and
more..... and have it be fantastic as well...
I don't mean that in the sense of
my writings, because I'm sarcastically funny / entertaining / sometimes serious,
and know how to write. I LOVE LOVE LOVE writing and it's my passion... so , I
know how to put words together as a blog... I LOVE to blog... but when I say I'm
an awful blogger...I pretty much mean that sometimes, I don't have much to write
about because my life isn't that entertaining at the moment.
I'm looking for a new job, I'm looking for a new apartment, I'm
going through a lot of stuff, but none I care to talk about right now... and ,
my life is pretty boring at the moment... besides my kids making me laugh, doing
silly things, and me having to be tough with them sometimes, there's not much
else that goes on in my life that I feel is worth the "talk".... but, last night
- as I was lying in bed in pain from my back and my head... (lower back from a
fall - and head from a recent head injury/Concussion I suffered last week)... I
was thinking about how much pain I was in, how emotionally drained I am from
everything going on, and a thousand different ways my life could go right now,
and I did NOT feel like smiling. Actually , I felt like crying... I felt like
crying for so many different reasons ... and I decided instead - to read one of
my favorite MOMMY BLOGGERS... I like to read different blogs of women who write
from church goer's, to other mothers, to wives, divorced women, engaged women,
stay at home women, women with their own business's, I just like to read what
other women have to say... (I say women because it's very rare to find a DADDY
BLOG or guys who keep blogs)... I have a whole list of other women's blogs I
enjoy reading.... and last night, when I was depressed, feeling down and out,
and wanting to cry.... I wanted to write at the same time.. but , felt like I
had nothing interesting to say at the moment.
Well, when I read this MOMMY BLOG of this
woman I enjoy reading - her writing from a while ago had me laughing to the
point of tears...her pictures were hilirious and went along with her story...
and she just wrote what happened to her in such a fantastic way, that made me
smile when I didn't want to... and inspired me because I realized that even when
I don't have anything to write about.... I can write about anything!!!! Funny,
sad, silly stories, things that have happened in my life, experiences, and
more..... and have it be fantastic as well...
So, I don't exactly know if it's a good idea I realized I could write about
anything - and have it be interesting to some people. LMAO...
Seriously tho.... while reading this
woman's blog... she was saying how her loved one had his tonsils taken out and
how she was excited when she found out his room window looked like it had an
awesome view outside, until she looked outside of it - and saw there was a
cemetary right there by the hospital. Right next door... with tombstones and
everything. She freaked out / was creeped out - and took a picture of it. ....
now, because of COPYRIGHT - even morals and values..I will NOT post the pictures
here because they are HERS - but if you'd like to see them, I'd be more than
happy to share her site and gain her more visitors... she's an awesome
writer.....
Any way.... she posted the pictures of the
cemetary, AND THEN - had me cracking up so hard when she had mentioned on her
blog .. looking down even further and seeing tombstones on the hospital
property...YES - right there on the property... if that doesn't make someone a
little jittery going in for surgery at that hospital - I don't know what will..
lmao...
She then writes about how she was going to ask for ice
- but noticed a sign that said "Here at this hospital, we strive for family to
take active parts in the care of their loved ones"... something to that
affect...and , it had a picture of a woman doing something for her loved one
instead of the staff... so she took that as a sign to get the ice herself!
lmao... I swear, my pain, my bad mood last night -was gone after that.... and I
even realized that the silliest stuff, the littlest stuff, pictures,
experiences, stories, whatever that I may write.... can have such a wonderful
affect on someone else whose having a bad day.... if I think it's nothing or
it's just something small that I write... it may make someone else laugh. It may
make someone else's day.... so, when I think I have nothing to write about and
go DAYS or MONTHS without writing, I see now that a good writer ALWAYS has
something to say...or write about in my case... and a good blogger as well. So
- I want to share a few things with you... even if I think they're totally
random and small... they make me smile and maybe you will too... or even laugh a
bit...
The father of my kids / ex hubby and
I - I THINK are now at some point in our lives where we can kind of be civil to
each other so he let me know yesterday that our youngest daughter has her first
birthday party invite. I'm living with Angel now and Cisco (ex hubby) and I
take turns with the kids back and forth..taking them to school and such, and his
sister helps out when she can which is a big help to us both. Her and I have
even become some what civil to each other, and as the kids' aunt - she does a
lot for them and she really helps. I'm excited and I will def. be taking Lani
to her friends birthday party, I will def. be there Monday or Tuesday I believe
it is for picture day.... and I will def. 100% be there for the OPEN HOUSE they
have going on where parents can meet the teachers and see what goes on in
school. Those are things as a mom - I would never miss. I'm always at every
single event - field trips, open houses, basketball games, I do it all. I make
sure to keep active in their lives even on the days their dad has them... and I
know when I get my new place - he will do the same. I'll always include him in
everything. I hope the civil between us contines....
On
another note... I was at the Family Dollar yesterday and they can get kind of
pricey with their items... so for the items I can get away with buying at the
DOLLAR TREE where everything is a dollar... (we all know I'm the QUEEN of sales
and cheaper prices)..lmao... I go there... but, I had to get a few things I
couldn't get at the DOLLAR TREE yesterday, so while in DOLLAR GENERAL, I noticed
a Mexican woman with 3 small daughters under 8, and the oldest was holding a
ball and screaming at the top of her lungs, crying that she wanted it. The
mother was telling her she only had $2 and was getting them a bag of chips that
the other 2 sisters wanted as well... they agreed on it and that was final - she
said. I felt so bad for this mother because the oldest kid was really throwing a
tantrum while the mother was trying to pay and leave... so, since I was blessed
with some money yesterday...I decided to give each child (with their mothers
permission) $1 each...I know it's not much, but I wasn't breaking anymore big
bills ... LOL.... I need to save money... any way, I give each kid $1 and tell
the mother the same exact ball at the DOLLAR TREE a block away is $1... she
thanked me so much..and was so happy that the oldest stopped crying and was
happy with the buck. She told her sister something about La Senora and Dinero...
now, I'm not sure if it's a good thing I got called Senora... because I feel old
as it is..lmao... but hey, if I was able to make these kids smile... why not?
I told the woman I have three of my own, told her GOD BLESS, and walked out.....
I felt good... I made her day a little easier... :) I'll always bless someone
if I can...
Let's talk about
how this dang gas station attendant should be blessing ME ! LMAO... I'm in his
gas station daily sometimes to get coffee and these $5 lotto/Bingo tickets I've
been addicted to since I was 24. When I was 24, I started playing
anything - and have it be interesting to some people. LMAO...
Seriously tho.... while reading this
woman's blog... she was saying how her loved one had his tonsils taken out and
how she was excited when she found out his room window looked like it had an
awesome view outside, until she looked outside of it - and saw there was a
cemetary right there by the hospital. Right next door... with tombstones and
everything. She freaked out / was creeped out - and took a picture of it. ....
now, because of COPYRIGHT - even morals and values..I will NOT post the pictures
here because they are HERS - but if you'd like to see them, I'd be more than
happy to share her site and gain her more visitors... she's an awesome
writer.....
Any way.... she posted the pictures of the
cemetary, AND THEN - had me cracking up so hard when she had mentioned on her
blog .. looking down even further and seeing tombstones on the hospital
property...YES - right there on the property... if that doesn't make someone a
little jittery going in for surgery at that hospital - I don't know what will..
lmao...
She then writes about how she was going to ask for ice
- but noticed a sign that said "Here at this hospital, we strive for family to
take active parts in the care of their loved ones"... something to that
affect...and , it had a picture of a woman doing something for her loved one
instead of the staff... so she took that as a sign to get the ice herself!
lmao... I swear, my pain, my bad mood last night -was gone after that.... and I
even realized that the silliest stuff, the littlest stuff, pictures,
experiences, stories, whatever that I may write.... can have such a wonderful
affect on someone else whose having a bad day.... if I think it's nothing or
it's just something small that I write... it may make someone else laugh. It may
make someone else's day.... so, when I think I have nothing to write about and
go DAYS or MONTHS without writing, I see now that a good writer ALWAYS has
something to say...or write about in my case... and a good blogger as well. So
- I want to share a few things with you... even if I think they're totally
random and small... they make me smile and maybe you will too... or even laugh a
bit...
The father of my kids / ex hubby and
I - I THINK are now at some point in our lives where we can kind of be civil to
each other so he let me know yesterday that our youngest daughter has her first
birthday party invite. I'm living with Angel now and Cisco (ex hubby) and I
take turns with the kids back and forth..taking them to school and such, and his
sister helps out when she can which is a big help to us both. Her and I have
even become some what civil to each other, and as the kids' aunt - she does a
lot for them and she really helps. I'm excited and I will def. be taking Lani
to her friends birthday party, I will def. be there Monday or Tuesday I believe
it is for picture day.... and I will def. 100% be there for the OPEN HOUSE they
have going on where parents can meet the teachers and see what goes on in
school. Those are things as a mom - I would never miss. I'm always at every
single event - field trips, open houses, basketball games, I do it all. I make
sure to keep active in their lives even on the days their dad has them... and I
know when I get my new place - he will do the same. I'll always include him in
everything. I hope the civil between us contines....
On
another note... I was at the Family Dollar yesterday and they can get kind of
pricey with their items... so for the items I can get away with buying at the
DOLLAR TREE where everything is a dollar... (we all know I'm the QUEEN of sales
and cheaper prices)..lmao... I go there... but, I had to get a few things I
couldn't get at the DOLLAR TREE yesterday, so while in DOLLAR GENERAL, I noticed
a Mexican woman with 3 small daughters under 8, and the oldest was holding a
ball and screaming at the top of her lungs, crying that she wanted it. The
mother was telling her she only had $2 and was getting them a bag of chips that
the other 2 sisters wanted as well... they agreed on it and that was final - she
said. I felt so bad for this mother because the oldest kid was really throwing a
tantrum while the mother was trying to pay and leave... so, since I was blessed
with some money yesterday...I decided to give each child (with their mothers
permission) $1 each...I know it's not much, but I wasn't breaking anymore big
bills ... LOL.... I need to save money... any way, I give each kid $1 and tell
the mother the same exact ball at the DOLLAR TREE a block away is $1... she
thanked me so much..and was so happy that the oldest stopped crying and was
happy with the buck. She told her sister something about La Senora and Dinero...
now, I'm not sure if it's a good thing I got called Senora... because I feel old
as it is..lmao... but hey, if I was able to make these kids smile... why not?
I told the woman I have three of my own, told her GOD BLESS, and walked out.....
I felt good... I made her day a little easier... :) I'll always bless someone
if I can...
Let's talk about
how this dang gas station attendant should be blessing ME ! LMAO... I'm in his
gas station daily sometimes to get coffee and these $5 lotto/Bingo tickets I've
been addicted to since I was 24. When I was 24, I started playing
The first time I played this addicting ass scratch off -I won $25. I took it
back to the gas station and got another- and won $5.... took it back and got
another, and won $10.... took it back and got another, and stopped winning after
that. I never thought to myself not all of them are winners - I just kept
playing and playing and playing...and from 24 up until now... the age of 31...
every time I have an extra $5... I always get one of these.... it makes me laugh
because today I thought to myself, "Poor Angel, I yell at him for spending money
on cigarettes and stupid shit, and here I am doing the same thing with these
things!"... lmao... I've won a few bucks here and there over the course of my
years playing this... but , my addiction has gotten bad... I use to think my
uncle Tony had a bad gambling addiction when he use to go bet on horses at the
race track and end up in dept. - but I've brought 2 of these dang things in the
last 24 hours , lost both times... and want to go back and get more... why?
Because you get so close to winning, you think, "maybe the next ticket WILL be a
winner"...and that's how I think... LMAO... terrible, isn't it?! Well, last
night, I needed an O - 73 to win $650 bucks... that's a friggin' lot of money!
For me any way.... it was $500 on one for 4 corners... $50 on another for a line
, and $100 on another for another 4 corners if I had just gotten that one stupid
number. Of course, they always give you one number away from it because I got
O - 72 .... but no 73... ugh! Then today, I go and get another because Angel
yelled at me last night for wanting to go and get another and wouldn't let me
waste money...LOL... and today, I get another one number away from $100.... WHAT
THE HELL MAN! Guess where I'll be going later? LMAO.... back to the gas
station to try my luck one more time tonight... 3rd time is a charm , isn't it?!
I haven't played these in over a year. I stopped for a while, but once you get
started again, the thing is a bad habit. So, wish me luck.... hey man, I don't
do drugs, okay???? THIS IS MY ANTI-DRUG! LMAO.... this morning after not
winning anything again - I felt like Gina in the movie - Eva Mendes when she's
counting her tips from her job and says, "I could have stayed home for this
shit".. LOL..
What else
what else?? I've decided to stop playing around and go take the math test that
has been keeping me out of college. I can't pass this test for the life of me
and I need to finish and graduate college before I'm friggin' 40.... I am going
to register to take this funky ass test again, and study my ass off to pass it
this time... I'm going to hire a private tutor, open the books, and do whatever
it takes. I asked Angel to get a library card so I can go get out some math
books and I giggled when he joked about me not bringing the books back on time
and them being late in his name. I have a library card but I did that too
mine...so he's worried... I always went to the library. I love to read and there
was one time I just stopped going , didn't take my books back, and now have to
pay for them... so he's right ... but I wouldn't do that to his card... but I do
need to study for this damn tests so online books whatever... it's going to be
done ! I need to get back into college and plan on doing so before Christmas
is here.
Christmas .....my
mom is on a count down trip! She's telling me every time I see her now how many
days it is until Christmas. I'm def. looking forward to it. I can't say that I'm
not... everyone is getting the same friggin' thing this year! lmao... I'm not
doing a lot of shopping. I know what I'm getting my parents , my brother, Angel,
etc. the only ones who are probably going to be shopped for - are the kids... !
Kids def. need some goodies to open on Christmas. I wouldn't not get them
anything... of course my babies are getting gifts. :) Ah.....I can't believe it
came so fast this year. I'm looking forward to taking the kids downtown to the
FESTIVAL OF LIGHTS where we go every year... and to see the Disney parade and
all.
I am also currently
working on 3 books that I planned to have published as soon as possible because
if they sell and they're big hits... big bucks baby!! I don't count my chickens
before they're hatched tho because I could also be like Ashley in FRESH PRINCE
when she thought her CDs would sell and she was sitting there at her album
singing with no customers... LOL... God forbid , right?! I remember in my 8th
grade graduation year book, the yearbook staff and the 8th grade class votes me
MOST LIKELY TO BECOME A WRITER... and I def. want to say, "I made it!"........ I
love to write.
And.... on
another note.... I have a bruised brain , I knocked it off balance ,or
something.... I suffered a concussion last Monday. Not sure if I wrote about it
or not, but I'm back on my feet and on the road to recovery... I'm suppose to
take 3 different kinds of medications, and go see a brain specialist at the
brain clinic... but haven't yet. We all know how much I love doctors and doing
what they suggest.... NNNOOOTTTT! Seriously, I do need to get a lot of things
done that I've been dragging out... name change on my SS card, Drivers license
renewal...ID update..all of it... and if I sit here and keep typing, you're
going to have tons more to read... so I'm going to sign off for now.. and wish
you all a lot of love and happiness this weekend.
Be safe...
Shel.
back to the gas station and got another- and won $5.... took it back and got
another, and won $10.... took it back and got another, and stopped winning after
that. I never thought to myself not all of them are winners - I just kept
playing and playing and playing...and from 24 up until now... the age of 31...
every time I have an extra $5... I always get one of these.... it makes me laugh
because today I thought to myself, "Poor Angel, I yell at him for spending money
on cigarettes and stupid shit, and here I am doing the same thing with these
things!"... lmao... I've won a few bucks here and there over the course of my
years playing this... but , my addiction has gotten bad... I use to think my
uncle Tony had a bad gambling addiction when he use to go bet on horses at the
race track and end up in dept. - but I've brought 2 of these dang things in the
last 24 hours , lost both times... and want to go back and get more... why?
Because you get so close to winning, you think, "maybe the next ticket WILL be a
winner"...and that's how I think... LMAO... terrible, isn't it?! Well, last
night, I needed an O - 73 to win $650 bucks... that's a friggin' lot of money!
For me any way.... it was $500 on one for 4 corners... $50 on another for a line
, and $100 on another for another 4 corners if I had just gotten that one stupid
number. Of course, they always give you one number away from it because I got
O - 72 .... but no 73... ugh! Then today, I go and get another because Angel
yelled at me last night for wanting to go and get another and wouldn't let me
waste money...LOL... and today, I get another one number away from $100.... WHAT
THE HELL MAN! Guess where I'll be going later? LMAO.... back to the gas
station to try my luck one more time tonight... 3rd time is a charm , isn't it?!
I haven't played these in over a year. I stopped for a while, but once you get
started again, the thing is a bad habit. So, wish me luck.... hey man, I don't
do drugs, okay???? THIS IS MY ANTI-DRUG! LMAO.... this morning after not
winning anything again - I felt like Gina in the movie - Eva Mendes when she's
counting her tips from her job and says, "I could have stayed home for this
shit".. LOL..
What else
what else?? I've decided to stop playing around and go take the math test that
has been keeping me out of college. I can't pass this test for the life of me
and I need to finish and graduate college before I'm friggin' 40.... I am going
to register to take this funky ass test again, and study my ass off to pass it
this time... I'm going to hire a private tutor, open the books, and do whatever
it takes. I asked Angel to get a library card so I can go get out some math
books and I giggled when he joked about me not bringing the books back on time
and them being late in his name. I have a library card but I did that too
mine...so he's worried... I always went to the library. I love to read and there
was one time I just stopped going , didn't take my books back, and now have to
pay for them... so he's right ... but I wouldn't do that to his card... but I do
need to study for this damn tests so online books whatever... it's going to be
done ! I need to get back into college and plan on doing so before Christmas
is here.
Christmas .....my
mom is on a count down trip! She's telling me every time I see her now how many
days it is until Christmas. I'm def. looking forward to it. I can't say that I'm
not... everyone is getting the same friggin' thing this year! lmao... I'm not
doing a lot of shopping. I know what I'm getting my parents , my brother, Angel,
etc. the only ones who are probably going to be shopped for - are the kids... !
Kids def. need some goodies to open on Christmas. I wouldn't not get them
anything... of course my babies are getting gifts. :) Ah.....I can't believe it
came so fast this year. I'm looking forward to taking the kids downtown to the
FESTIVAL OF LIGHTS where we go every year... and to see the Disney parade and
all.
I am also currently
working on 3 books that I planned to have published as soon as possible because
if they sell and they're big hits... big bucks baby!! I don't count my chickens
before they're hatched tho because I could also be like Ashley in FRESH PRINCE
when she thought her CDs would sell and she was sitting there at her album
singing with no customers... LOL... God forbid , right?! I remember in my 8th
grade graduation year book, the yearbook staff and the 8th grade class votes me
MOST LIKELY TO BECOME A WRITER... and I def. want to say, "I made it!"........ I
love to write.
And.... on
another note.... I have a bruised brain , I knocked it off balance ,or
something.... I suffered a concussion last Monday. Not sure if I wrote about it
or not, but I'm back on my feet and on the road to recovery... I'm suppose to
take 3 different kinds of medications, and go see a brain specialist at the
brain clinic... but haven't yet. We all know how much I love doctors and doing
what they suggest.... NNNOOOTTTT! Seriously, I do need to get a lot of things
done that I've been dragging out... name change on my SS card, Drivers license
renewal...ID update..all of it... and if I sit here and keep typing, you're
going to have tons more to read... so I'm going to sign off for now.. and wish
you all a lot of love and happiness this weekend.
Be safe...
Shel.
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